My first year after college!

I’ve been a college student for the last TEN YEARS! I finished my bachelor’s in May and hope to go back to grad school next fall, so I’m trying to soak in every moment of my one measly year off school.

Today I made it to the gym, which means I’ve gone for the last 2 weeks without missing any days unless I worked 12 hour shifts (I work 2 of them a week). The gym is closed already when I get off work at 9 so they get to be rest days. It seems so much easier to make the gym part of your schedule when you’re not in school! When I was working full time (and going into overtime on a regular basis so that I could pay my tuition) and then coming home to do school work, plus having my house to keep up, food to make since I try to eat moo-Paleo at home, and have some sort of social life, the gym was always the first to go. I obviously really value being active and healthy, so it really sucks that I let that slip so easily, but sometimes it just feels like something’s gotta give!

It is so incredibly nice to be able to wake up when I want, meander over to the gym for a nice morning workout, and then come sit down and enjoy the world of blogging and eat my homemade breakfast and a nice cup of coffee. My free time belongs to me. I don’t think I even had free time in the last 10 years. I really think every second of every day was taken up by a laundry list of things that needed to be done. This is the first time I’ve been able to just relax on my days off! It really makes me dread grad school, but I really want to get my master’s so I guess I need to just suck it up.

Hard work pays off. But then again, not working so hard really pays off too sometimes. I think in the last few weeks, my cortisol levels have decreased. I say that jokingly kind of. I have no idea what my cortisol levels are. But since I live in a pretty constant state of stress (hello Type A), I imagine my cortisol levels will contribute to a death 10 years early.

I am so envious of people who finished their bachelor’s in 4-5 years and then have just taken the last 5-6 years to enjoy life! I know ended up taking 1 1/2 years off of school because of the Army (by the way- I count this time as my college years because I wasn’t enjoying my life during basic and AIT and my deployment, while it was relaxing, I was definitely not living my life how I wanted) and went a nonconventional route of finishing my ASN (associate’s in nursing) and working full time while getting my BSN, but still…

I bet they have enjoyed far more cups of coffee without some schoolbook in front of their face!

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My mornings like this are the best… And I kind of dread the days where my cup of coffee is enjoyed over research papers and discussion postings.

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And to end this, I really love this breakfast food. One smashed banana, two eggs, some vanilla, cinnamon, whatever… Scramble it like scrambled eggs and it’s the best. These are the same recipe as Paleo pancakes (although I make my pancakes way better) but for lazy people who don’t have time to sit and make them turn into pancakes. It tricks you into feeling like your getting bread for breakfast too because it just kind of has that consistency to me. Satisfies me. I have the best food ideas.

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CrossFit, Travel Nursing, Wedding Dresses!

What a busy week! I’m on a roll with working lately (Tues, Wed, Fri, Sat, Sun, Tues, Wed), so I’m on my Thursday off in the middle there. I go into overtime this pay week which is really nice, especially since I don’t work much surrounding the wedding.

I just got home from CrossFit. We did:

21-15-9-6-3 reps for time of:
Strict handstand push-ups
195-lb. front squats
Burpees

I finished in 15:29 and did 75# for front squats. Rx for women was 135#. Uh, no. I did my first round without stopping and then felt like dying every 2 seconds after that. I still ended up with a pretty good time though. I almost didn’t go since I’m not a fan of burpees, but I convinced myself that it really wasn’t that many and decided to suck it up. It didn’t really feel like that many, but I’m not used to the heat yet so I’m getting super nauseous with working out lately.

Anywho, I’ve been having my final fittings for my wedding dress lately. I had a bit of a breakdown (that sound really dramatic- it was not) on Monday. Laura met me at David’s Bridal for a fitting and I thought the dress just didn’t look right. My boob fat was everywhere but if the top was let out, it would fall down. No hips to hold anything up. I said I’d go back and try it with a different bra on Tuesday night and hope that it looked better. But I was just really regretting my dress decision all together, wishing I had found one with straps like I had wanted. The wedding was planned with such short notice though that I felt rushed to get a dress and I was on a budget! I was really wishing I had spent the $1200 to get the dress I loved, so I was all disappointed on my way home from David’s Bridal. Tuesday we went back and the girl let out the top and tightened the waist to see how it fit. I was initially against this, but I sneezed while I had the dress on and popped the clasp in the back, so I knew I had to let it out! It does look better now, but the boob fat is still there a little. So I’m duct taping it in. I used to always duct tape strapless bras in place cause you can lift your boobs up and hold them there, so I know it works. Quick fix (by the way- I don’t wear strapless tops anymore so I don’t do that anymore). The waist now is insanely tight, but I moved around in it and it didn’t feel like it was about to rip so I’m going with it. I’d rather have to suffer breathing than have to pull up my dress repeatedly. And I’m sure when I sweat all in that expensive dress at the wedding, it’ll stretch out some too. So I feel better about how it looks, so I have it at home to do the final try on (should be fine) since I was in no mood to do it after work last night. Getting close!

I spoke with a recruiter today from RNNetwork, which is one of the travel companies I’m looking at. They have 4 ER spots open in June and some ICU (the girl I’m going with is doing ICU) so I’m hoping that this assignment will work out. They ranked #3 in Fortune 500 companies in one of the recent years and I read good reviews on them, so I’m hoping this works out. Otherwise, I have Cirrus to contact also since they have a lot of Boston contracts. I need to get online tonight and go through a bunch of paperwork for the company. It’s starting to hit me that I’ll be leaving next month! I used to be really independent of Jon, but since he’s been with me every night since we went to Italy in June and is going to be my husband, I kind of like my time with him.

I believe I made either a very high B or an A in my biology class. Had I known the curve was going to be so huge on the final, I would have actually looked over some stuff since I would have easily had an A in the whole class had I not made a 45% on the multiple choice portion of the final. If my calculations are correct though, I did end up with an A. Just waiting on the final calculations to come through since a few grades still aren’t posted.

I’m feeling overwhelmed with my to do list. I have tons of cleaning to do, paint touch ups, grocery shopping, studying for the GRE (I seriously forgot all simple, basic math- you should have seen me studying last night- thankfully Jon is a smart man and just finished calculus and is refreshed on all these silly math things), getting ready for the wedding, paperwork for travel assignments… It’s just insane. I wish I knew how it felt to wake up with hardly anything to get done in a day! But instead of getting those things done, I’m going to head to the pool for a bit (getting at least a little bit of a tan is also on my to do list before the wedding- especially since I managed to get horrible V-neck tan lines the other week), get my hair cut, and then stop by the store to pick up food to make tacos for dinner and then work on paperwork before having to work the next 3 days.

 

Happy 28th Birthday to ME!

I wasn’t going to post a blog today because I’m cramming for my final (in beautiful weather- how depressing) but I’m drinking my coffee right now and I have a general rule that I can’t do any homework while I enjoy my coffee. Also, if you have a Keurig, try the brown sugar cake K-cups from Target.

Just a quick update on the highlight decision- I walked into Toni & Guy and said to the girl, “I have an appointment at 4pm with Malcolm” and then she said, “Nooo… It’s with Ashari,” who is my hair colorist! Cue freakout. My response was actually, “Oh shit, but I don’t know what I want to do with my hair color yet!” Haha. Anyway, I went with highlights. They’re fairly obvious in person, but the camera wasn’t capturing it well. I also had to switch my part because I have a weird darker stripe in the front of my head if I part my hair on the normal side. I may have them fix it, but then again, I haven’t switched my part in awhile and need to anyway. I don’t love the highlights but everybody at work said they looked good.

Thursday night, I got home and Jon let me open my birthday present!

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A starter camera kit! That’s a Canon Rebel EOS T3i (I have no idea what all that means). I LOVE it! Granted, I have not a freaking clue how to use it, but luckily my brother and Jon’s sister both use DSLRs so they can teach me a thing or two. I was shocked and had no idea what Jon was getting me! I have been mentioning how much I want a nice camera since I travel so much. I’m always so bummed when I looked back at my Switzerland pictures because it was such an awesome place and my camera was such a POS. (I do have a better point and shoot now- I went to Switzerland when I was 21.) With travel nursing coming up, I wanted something to really capture all that I’m about to see! I also wouldn’t have invested in a camera for myself since I still have to buy a laptop, so Jon really did awesome with this gift!

I worked yesterday and had a fairly good 8 hour day. I asked to go to my favorite assignment for the last 4 cause it was my birthday and the supervisor let me. Always nice.

Then I went to Treehouse Pub with Gina, Brian, Kassie, Billy, Laura, and Jon for my birthday dinner. I was so glad Jon was able to make it! The food was pretty good and the atmosphere was decent! They had nice porch seating there which I love. I had a great time with my friends and was glad to get to spend some time with them on a Thursday night. It was actually a lot of fun and I’d like to do it more often.  We rarely get all the guys together too since I typically like to just enjoy the girls when I have a chance!

Here are some pictures with my new camera! They’re all on the automatic setting since I have no clue how to use it yet!

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I included this mostly to try and get my hair. Jon was just messing around with the camera.

 

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Again, attempting to get the hair. Not really working. Or maybe that is really what it looks like to other people and I just can’t tell in a mirror.

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My handsome man! Love him!

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Kassie, Gina, me, and Laura! I’ve been friends with them since I was 14!

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Laura took this one! I love it! And we did not mean to match! I didn’t even notice till we were in the car! Also, he looks so big in that picture! Sometimes I feel like it’s not so obvious that he’s 14 inches taller than me and 110lbs more than me, but it is here!

Anyway, so that sums up our night! Also, on my 28th birthday, I got my Massachusetts nursing license (WOOHOO!!) and found out the girl I am going to travel nurse with is coming to my wedding. Today I take my last final for my BSN and then I walk down the aisle to that studly man above in 22 days (holy moly- I have a LOT OF PLANNING TO DO!). I also have a GRE study book now so may be hopping on the grad school train in the fall if I get everything done in time and get accepted!

Okay, I really stretched out this cup of coffee, but it’s done. Time to go memorize B cells, T cells, and helper T cells…

Suggestions for wedding hair? Anyone? Annnyyyone?

No gym again today! I slept until 10:30 because of this dreary weather (I’m hoping this isn’t the norm because it’s stressing me out thinking it’s going to rain on my wedding day- our venue is not okay for rain!). I had planned on going to the gym but as I planned out my day some more, realized I don’t really have a ton of time. Besides, my last final is Friday so I can jump back on board after my finals are over. I can deal with not getting beefy over the next few days.

I managed to clean up the house some since it’s a serious disaster! By clean up, I still mean that the house is a disaster, but just less of one. I have Saturday evening and Sunday off this week, but it’s mine and Jon’s first weekend off in a month together where he’s not on call and we don’t have any homework to do! So I want to get the house in some sort of order prior to our weekend since I have a hard time relaxing in a mess and we have to finish painting still! We’re going to start on our outlet covers and buy new vent covers this weekend too. Maybe once the house is back in order, I’ll take some after pictures. No before pictures. I forgot about them. And I actually have to go grocery shopping. I have nothing but eggs, sausage, bacon, hashbrowns, and turkey to eat. I’ve now eaten that for the last 10 meals and I can’t handle not having any fruits and veggies in my house.

I have a hair appointment at 4. I’m still not sure what to do with my bangs since I don’t know what is going on with my hair for my wedding day. I know we’re 3 weeks out and those are things I should know by now, but I don’t. So I’ll just talk to my fabulous hair guy and see what he recommends. I have a feeling my bangs will stay and then once I decide on my hairstyle, I can go back and have them cut if I need to (or I definitely will after the wedding!). I’m getting my hair colored next week too and don’t even know what I want to do! I haven’t had highlights in over a year because of the cost ($110 for highlights, $40 for all over color) and I felt like they were damaging my hair, but I had highlights before that I loved.

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 Gina and Kassie next to me.

Those are the highlights… I liked them a lot when my hair was wavy and I have a feeling my hair will somehow be wavy and in a low side bun thing. But I also just like my hair dark.

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By the way, that’s my oldest sister, Tonie.

That was taken a few years ago (obviously since my hair was so short), but I couldn’t find any pictures of my hair dark with it longer. I haven’t colored my hair in about 8 or 9 months, so my hair color is back to my original color for most of the roots and then darker at the ends. So, I’m either going back to highlights like above, or that color there, which I also like. Either way, I doubt I’ll keep getting highlights permanently. I hate sitting at the hair salon for so long and I’m kind of used to not having them anymore. If anybody has any input, just let me know! I really need to decide and am feeling too indecisive since there are so many decisions to make!

In other news, today is my last day being 27. Tomorrow I turn 28! Jon has a huge box for me in the living room and I’m dying to open it! I’m secretly hoping it’s a laptop, but I know it’s not! I don’t know if he’ll let me open it tonight or not, but it’s just sitting there taunting me! I can’t take it! I’m working from 11-7 tomorrow and then going to have a birthday dinner with my friends and Jon! I think it’s just going to be Kass, Gina, Laura, and me. And Jon. And maybe their boys. I invited some more people but haven’t heard back or they’re busy. I don’t mind at all though! I wasn’t even going to do anything but last night decided to go ahead and plan a little something, but with all this wedding stuff this month, I feel like a birthday celebration is too much! So just a small dinner! Not sure where yet, but I’m glad my best friends from high school are able to make it! And Jon, of course.

My blog has no direction at all. I’m such a disaster. Back to working on biology before my hair appointment! I can’t wait till this final is over on Friday night! I calculated it out and I think that without the final, I’m right at 70/100 points total. The final is worth 20 points, so I doubt I’ll make an A, but I can probably end up with a B. It looks like I can’t fail the class though! Woohoo! Maybe that’s why my motivation is seriously lacking. Or because it’s my last class for my bachelor’s and I am finally done with my undergrad!!!!!!

Back at the old CrossFit gym

I went back to my old gym today! Actually, I started out at the dentist, with some good news that my crown doesn’t need to be replaced (I’ve had it done twice in two years) and that my bite was just off! I’ve been having pretty severe temperature sensitivity and pain with pressure lately. So my bite was adjusted and he said within 6 weeks, everything should heal up and maybe I’ll be able to eat on that side of my mouth again!

Then I went back to my old gym (my third CrossFit gym that I was a regular at)! I had plans of becoming a CrossFit trainer there but then changed my mind because of my busy schedule, but went there for about 7-8 months before I moved. Despite the fact that there was a lot of drama between that gym and the previous gym I went to (among other things), it felt so good to be back there. I saw familiar faces and the ones that weren’t familiar were all so friendly. I had a good workout and at the end, one girl was still going for a long time, and it was so nice that every single person cheered her along! That is standard to do in CrossFit, but my gym now doesn’t foster quite the same environment. They’re a bit of elitists where I go now, so it’s a totally different feel. They produce a lot of Games competitors but I don’t care about all that mess anymore. I just don’t think that the gym I’m at now is the best fit for where I’m at with CrossFit anymore, but it’s super close and I’m leaving for travel nursing soon anyway, so I might as well just stay there for now. Anyway, I left feeling super happy about being back there and feeling “right” about the gym that I was at. I miss all three of my old gyms a ton. I’m hoping that when I travel, I can find a good CrossFit gym in each city to be a part of for my 13 weeks in each place. I’ll be celebrating my 5 year CrossFit-iversary in June. Maybe I’ll eat a cake for it. Kidding. I probably won’t even go to the gym for it.

Anyway, we did Nasty Girls today, which is 3 rounds of 50 air squats, 7 muscle ups, and 10 hang cleans. Instead of muscle ups, I did 14 pull ups and 14 ring dips for each set, which was nice of the owner since it’s normally 3x the amount of muscle ups (or whatever move you’re subbing for), but apparently they just did something similar so he didn’t want everybody to have to do so many pull ups and ring dips. I used 65# for my cleans and finished in 12:57.

I need to start studying again for my test tonight. Last night I just read blogs and then watched Real Housewives, so I never ended up getting much done. It’s dreary and drizzly out though so a nap with the Fluff is just calling my name. Considering I’m not being very productive though, I doubt I’ll have time for that. Boo.

 

Best foods, travel nursing, Braves, and no workouts.

Since I missed my exercise recap last week, let me get that out of the way:

SMTWTFS: Nothing

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Whew! Glad we got that out of the way. I did go on a few walks with Jon and enjoyed all of them (as shown above with his fancy new iPhone 5s- taking clearer selfies than the iPhone 5c POS). I didn’t step foot in the gym once or in my running shoes and I just don’t care one bit. But I am pretty excited to get back to it tomorrow. I have a dentist appointment at 10 but am really hoping to make it to CrossFit at 12, either at my old gym or at the one I go to now. I do miss being a regular at CrossFit, but there just isn’t a way for that to happen right now!

I created this masterpiece in the kitchen:

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That little bowl may not look like a beauty, but I sauteed some organic hashbrowns, threw in some chopped up Applegate Farms chicken & maple sausage, an egg, and some cheddar cheese, and that was like, the best breakfast ever. The only thing that would have made it better was topping it with syrup, but let’s be real, I eat enough syrup already.

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My favorite foodstuffs numero dos is my kale salad with kale (duh), strawberries, garlic powder, lemon infused olive oil (Galantino is my favorite, but let’s be real again guys, not everybody can be as awesome as me and have legit Italian olive oil- J/K, I’m almost out of it too), and the very best partgolden raisins. I’ve had golden raisins in salads before and loved them but I’ve never seen them in the store. Lucky for me, Trader Joe’s had them! I have had more salads since finding these babies than I have ever had in my life. Oh, and yes, I do eat my salads out of tupperware. Ain’t nobody got bowls big enough for that. (By the way, yes I talked about this in my last post- but I’m doing it again with a picture! That’s how you know I mean business.)

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And then there’s this fella. I haven’t spoken much about my love for Golden Star Coconut Milk, but it’s a real thing. It was 80% coconut cream and only 20% water, and those were the only two ingredients, nothing else. And it sold for like, $1.75 a can at Wal-Mart. But then the dreaded day came that Wal-Mart stopped carrying it and I have never seen it anywhere else. I’ve tried so many other coconut milks in hopes of finding a match to Golden Star and it’s always a crying shame. It never compares. But then! I found this can of goodness! I actually had overlooked it a time or twenty because it has like, two other ingredients in it and I’m a coconut milk snob, but I went for it in a moment of coconutmilk-mixed-with-strawberry desperation and I’m so glad I did. I ate this on strawberries today and it was like the coconut heavens rained down on me. I would like to say that I’m exaggerating, but I’m not. And the whole can is thick and creamy! Not even just 80% of it! I forgive the xantham gum in it! In fact, I love you, xantham gum, for making such a delicious treat!

This was totally not meant to be about food.

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As part of my #100happydays on instagram, I shared this today. I have finished my application for my Massachusetts nursing license! $275 later, of course. I also applied for graduation! The registrar confirmed receiving my form, and now all I have to do is become $130 poorer tomorrow and I will be holding that stupid $15,000 BSN degree in my hand in May! And possibly applying for the GRE, but I’m still undecided. Ask me after my final on May 2nd. Until then, I’ll just dream about Boston and all the other awesome sights and cities I’m going to see over my travel nursing career!

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To end on a totally random note (in case this whole thing wasn’t random enough), we’ve managed to make it to two Braves games in the last week (hence my lack of working out). Tuesday was the home opener and it was a snooze. Friday night was exciting and went into an extra inning and then the Braves ended up winning! I wish baseball was always exciting, but sometimes all the players do is strike out nonstop. Even Uggla’s plump rear can’t make up for that many strike outs in a row.

Alrighty, I’m actually supposed to be writing my essays for my biology test tomorrow, so I should probably go ahead and finish that.

When life is just too much!

Holy moly- I am drained. After putting off my biology class for the last few weeks (and missing about five assignments), I have a test in a week and now feel the need to cram. Plus I have a ton going on between now and Tuesday- mostly including work. I also have all my nursing licensing stuff figured out and need to take care of that, but for some reason, filling out forms and sending in $275 seems impossible. I have to apply for graduation (cause I’m done with school in 3 weeks), and sending in $130 also seems like way too much to do! I owe Jon for my car insurance and my health insurance is coming up, plus all the final wedding expenses will all have to be paid next month. Finals are coming up. I’m working more. I need to finish up my application with the travel nursing company and get all my letters of recommendation for traveling. I have to apply for the GRE and somehow find time to study. I need to decide if I can really muster up the strength to start grad school in the fall or if I should wait another year. And in just over two months, all of this has to be done, and I will be heading out to the door to my first travel assignment (I hope).

It just feels a bit like I’m drowning. And after the Braves home opener last night (woohoo, BRAVES!), Jon and I got into a huge argument and I’m just feeling totally blah. Also, I am either sick again or spending so much time out in the pollen has really caused me to have some throat and nose problems. I typically don’t get allergies, but I’m feeling like it this year.

I need to go read more biology. I have to get my essays together and quite frankly, don’t even know where to begin with any of them. Not even a clue. But I have a feeling that all three of them will require information from various chapters to be pieced together, and since I haven’t done anything, now I have a ton to do since I can’t find the information all in one spot.

I’m sure this all seems worse because I have 0 energy to exercise so my energy levels are just staying low and my endorphins are probably wallowing in pools of cortisol. Monday and Tuesday I didn’t have any time to go to the gym or run and tomorrow and Friday I won’t either. So today I will probably skip the gym to get things done. I need to talk to the gym owner about how he is processing my payments since I have barely made it to CrossFit. You know- if I even make it to the gym ever again.

I’m just going to add everything in this list to the reason why adulthood sucks. And while I know I am very fortunate to have all the things I have in life (family, friends, Jon, a good job, my education, a house, two cats, my health, etc), sometimes the to-do list becomes a little too hectic and you lose all motivation to cross even the smallest thing off your list…