CrossFit and Sunbathing

Hey guys! I’ve posted two days in a row! It’s like old times around here!

Yesterday Jon came home from work around noon. Mondays are usually his short days and a lot of days, he doesn’t even go in for any cases. He just stays home. I had just put Jackson down when he got home so I headed to the pool for about 45 minutes. It’s not open yet, but it was nice to lay out there and get some sun! I really want it to hurry up and open though because hanging out in the water is so relaxing. I know I mentioned it yesterday, but I have really missed being able to be outdoors as much this year. I love spring and fall!

I came home and ate and fed Jackson before heading out to the 4:30 CrossFit class. I was so glad to be able to make it to that one since I feel like 4:30 is a less crowded time, but it was actually pretty busy! It was the same coach as last week (I don’t know his name) and he asked what I did for deadlifts last week since we were doing them again. I said 155 and he asked if I was going to go for 160. I said maybe and explained to him that I’m really just working out now to stay active and healthy. I’m not here to break records and honestly, at this point, I’m not even really there to challenge myself a ton. I’m trying to ease back into it after being pregnant and having a c-section, and besides, after two injuries that took me out of the gym for a long time (and out of work for 3 months), I just don’t have the same mindset anymore. I also don’t want to get too crazy because I want to keep up my milk supply and I don’t know that I’d eat enough calories to support extremely high intensity activity and milk making (I didn’t tell him that part)! When I said I had been hurt twice, he said, “Oh, you let your ego get the best of you, huh?” Who says that? I definitely don’t feel like I come across in that egotistical way at all at the gym. I was like, “No, actually, I was lifting super light when I hurt myself,” which is true. My thumb was an overuse injury and my hip popped coming out of a light squat.

Anyway, the workout was double unders (I did single unders), pull ups, and cleans after working up to heavy deadlifts. I did 95# deadlifts easily and added 30#, and when I went to do that, my back pain was so bad! It felt like it was in the same location as the back pain I had while I was pregnant, but I felt like there was no way that pain could have come back! I’ve been pain free since delivering! The coach asked how the weight felt and I said my back was hurting so I was going to take some weight off and he told me to go foam roll, so I did since that always helped when I was pregnant. I have the same pain as when I was pregnant! Ugh! I was so disappointed! The foam rolling was literally the same- same location, same feel to it when rolling out, everything. I was pretty bummed to realize my back pain stuck around. That’s the whole reason I had to quit working out in the first place before I was due (since I had wanted to make it to my due date working out). So, I’m not really sure what to do from here. I may just use lighter weights for everything and roll it out and see if it starts to get better, otherwise I’m thinking I may have to look into physical therapy. I know other moms said they had to see PT after delivering to overcome some of the aches and pains they acquired during pregnancy, but I just really don’t want to have to do that. Maybe I should check and see if insurance covers that, since I did already meet my out-of-pocket max for the year.

When I got home from the gym, Jon ran out to work out with Andrew so I was left with Jackson. Jon let him sleep an hour longer than usual so his schedule was off last night, leading me to spend forever trying to get him to go to bed and then he woke up hungry 45 minutes later! Once Jon got home, I spent my night eating and pumping. I have been so hungry lately from breastfeeding and the increase in activity yesterday put me over the top! I need to find healthy things to eat and keep them prepared cause I opened the fridge/freezer/pantry 45 times last night trying to find something to eat. Feeling full is a thing of the past! I haven’t even come close to that feeling since I started producing milk.

This morning I happened to realize the sun hits my front porch perfectly during Jackson’s morning nap, so I took my yoga mat and got about 25 minutes of sun before Jackson woke up! It was nice and cool out and felt good to see the sun again! I’m liking getting outside for the little bit during the day!

I’m planning on going to CrossFit this afternoon again. It looks like a pretty insane WOD with 2 miles of running total (a bunch of 400m runs). I’m not excited about that part at all, but I’m just going to take it easy and if I have to walk, well then, I’ll walk.

I’ll leave you all with this picture because it is my absolute favorite picture so far! I wish it was on my camera so that it was high resolution, but this is just an iPhone picture so I’ll never be able to print it out in a good quality, sadly! Isn’t that the cutest face ever?! I love his smiles!



Weekend Updates

Happy Monday! It was a beautiful weekend here, thankfully, since it’s supposed to start raining for the next week or so! Friday night Jon and I took it easy. I really wanted to go out and do something, but Jon wasn’t feeling well so we decided just to stay at home. It would have been too late to make plans to go downtown and I figured I’d be nice and take care of Jackson since Jon wasn’t feeling well (since evenings are usually Dad-time when he gets home from work).

I went back to work for the first time on Saturday! While it was really nice to feel like myself again, it was also a nice reminder that I actually don’t love my job and don’t really want to get back that bad! Unfortunately, if I want to put Jackson in daycare, then I have to keep working to pay for it! So, to work I’ll go! The ER is under major construction so it was completely different! Half our bathrooms are gone and there is only one way into the back for patients, compared to all the access we had before. It was so strange. I had an easy morning, thankfully! However, I think I may have thrush on my nipples or maybe they’re just super irritated from always pumping and I seriously broke out in an insane hormonal sweat. Like, my cleavage was a slip n’ slide. After that, my bra was wet and my nipples drove me INSANE! (I’m only including this story because I want future moms to be prepared for what’s coming their way.) They were so itchy and uncomfortable. I had thought about picking up more hours at work but honestly, my nipples were so uncomfortable that I couldn’t do it.

I got home around noon and it was beautiful out, so Jon and I decided to head out and enjoy the day!

We took Jackson to get some coffee at Land of a Thousand Hills, as usual. There was some art show there and it was super obnoxious because the people set up their artwork on the stairs for the patio so it was nearly impossible to get back on the patio and go back into the coffee shop from the grassy area. It would have been nice had they been a little more considerate of all the rest of the guests there. Jackson started fussing there so we decided to go look at cats at the humane society!

Atlanta has two really nice humane societies and I really love the one we went to. I got my three legged cat there (that was before the blog- he had been a stray and he didn’t last long because he was the worst cat EVER! I never thought I could get rid of a pet once I got it but holy moly, that thing was the devil) and they give you a $400 vet voucher and the cat didn’t even have fleas! We didn’t really see anything we were interested in except some adult cats, but we can’t do an adult cat with Kitty. I tried that with the three legged cat and I’ll only get a kitten while Kitty’s still alive. I really want to wait to find a blind cat which are all over Instagram, but all the cat rescuers and cat foster moms that I’ve found live too far away!

We were going to head home after that, but I’m so tired of being at home all the time so I really didn’t want to go back home! I found a Scoutmob for this pizza place so we went there and got some personal pizzas that were good! We ended up getting them to go because Jon bought me really good root beer that I wanted at home! We rented a Netflix movie and sat home and had a movie night together!

Jon fed Jackson around 11pm cause Jackson woke up crying and then he slept until 6am! It was AWESOME! I woke up at 5 cause he started fussing a little then, so I got up to pump since I hadn’t pumped since 9pm. It takes me an hour, and by the time I finished, Jackson was just waking up. After feeding him, I went back to sleep till 9am (Jon got up with Jackson at 8). So much sleep! I’m so glad we’re making progress cause I missed my sleep so much!

Jon went over to Andrew’s house, so I pumped and ate breakfast since Jackson had just gone down for a nap, and then I fed him and pumped again before Jon got home. We went up to my parent’s house around one yesterday.

I laid out on the deck at their house and it was so nice! I have been super pale since delivery and I don’t need to be super tan or even tan at all, but I don’t want to be translucent! I had two people at work ask me if I felt okay cause I looked so pale! It was nice to just relax outside too. It’s hard to take Jackson out in the middle of the day when it’s warm because his stroller is so hot (he’s still in the car seat) and wearing him is also super hot. I also can’t put sunscreen on him and don’t want him in long sleeves to block the sun in the heat. So we spend our days inside mostly! I miss getting out in the nice weather and going on my Stone Mountain hikes or taking walks or hanging out by the pool for a little while!

We had dinner there and then headed home after since it was almost Jackson’s bed time! We just hung out at home and I boiled pump parts and cleaned up a bit and that was it…

And now’s it’s Monday! I’m hoping to make it to the 4:30 CrossFit class tonight. There are a lot of pull ups and I have no idea what to do for pull ups now. I don’t know that I can kip 15 pull ups anymore. I haven’t used a band for pull ups in FOREVER though (I did them jumping off a box when I was pregnant after I stopped kipping because of my diastasis recti) so having to use a band seems so strange to me! But we’ll see. I also want to go lay out for a bit, but it’ll have to be in the parking lot in front of my house which is a little weird. But just for like, 20-30 minutes. I need some more vitamin D. Staying in the house so much (or running errands and going right back inside) is not working for me! I had planned on cleaning bathrooms and the floors today, but I may just take a nap instead. I’m tired today for some reason!

Actually, I think I’ll take a nap now. I have 30 minutes till Jackson wakes up!

CrossFit Dojo and Life Updates

Welp, I made it to the gym again. I went to CrossFit Dojo since I bought the Groupon for it. Oddly enough, back in 2007, my ex-boyfriend Andrew started dating this girl who messaged me about how I couldn’t call him anymore cause she didn’t trust him around me (it was a lot of 20 year old drama) and blah blah blah. Come to find out, he was just lying to both of us and we’ve been friends on Facebook ever since. She actually is going to this gym too on the Groupon and I ended up having to go the Fundamentals class since Jon got home so late from work and that was all that was left. So after being friends with her on Facebook since 2007, we finally met. She was super nice. I’m glad we’ve both grown up in the last 10 years!

But, I wasn’t impressed with that CrossFit gym. At all. They did the CrossFit total, which is a total of your max deadlift, back squat, and press. Our warm up was a 100m run (maybe it was 200m, I don’t know), 10 squats, 10 push ups, and 10 sit ups. That’s it. THAT’S IT! Our entire warm up for a max lift day! I judge CrossFit gyms harshly on two things- the warm up and the form. This one failed big time. I hurt my hip because I dropped into a gym with a shitty warm up after being in the car for an entire day and I honestly thing that would have been avoided with an adequate warm up. I was squatting light weight when I hurt myself. So, they failed on the warm up.

They failed even bigger on the form. If I was grading them, I’d give them like, a 20%. I think it’s scary when gyms push heavy weight on people who are new to lifting. The coach harped on how in a deadlift, if he says “DROP IT” it’s because your form is bad and you could really get hurt. He talked about how if you have to dump weight out of a squat, you should dump it a certain way not to get hurt. But then, the form. The form on these people was unreal it was so bad on the squats. Knees were caving in left and right. Heels were off the ground. These people were seriously struggling to stand up with the weight. And the coaches were watching them and telling them to add more weight. WHAT?! I don’t get it. These people are new to lifting or haven’t in a long time! Doing a max day is pretty stupid in my opinion anyway, but if you do, take it easy. There is no reason to push your hardest when you just started CrossFit 3 weeks ago. How about focusing on as heavy as you can lift with GOOD FORM?! I get that sometimes, people need to be pushed a little to go up in weight, but not after 3 weeks of a Fundamentals class! If I didn’t buy a Groupon, I’d probably never go back based off that one day because two of the coaches were there for that. (Actually, I think 3, but one was just kind of there and not actively coaching the class, but he did give input.) But maybe they’ll redeem themselves. However, I doubt I’ll stick with them because their prices are outrageous and CrossFit Chamblee (the CrossFit gym that I like) is cheaper and I like the gym better.

And not that I even care, but my back squat was 105 and my hip hurt pretty bad at just that weight. I feel like my hip regressed during pregnancy. It felt so tight. Hopefully with a better warm up and exercising more, it’ll loosen back up. My press was 65, and my deadlift was 155. I didn’t actually max on any of them because I don’t care to max on Day 1 at the gym after 3 months off.

(Side note: Jon literally just fell asleep on the couch next to me in like, 30 seconds flat. Impressive.)

I had planned on going back to CrossFit last night (since Jon made it home too late for me to go to book club- I was hoping he’d be home in time for me to at least make it to the gym), but Jon got home late and I wouldn’t have made it to the gym. And today, the workout looks killer and I had DOMS apparently, cause I’m so sore today!

In other news, Jackson and I ventured out on our own to the store! We went to Costco one day and Jackson looked around nonstop and then fell asleep (I wore him in the Ktan again). We went to Target today and he just slept the whole time. We were going to go to Target yesterday, but somebody (not me) was being a little grump yesterday. It actually wasn’t bad going to the store with him. Jackson is so good, but I keep waiting for a meltdown while we’re out. He actually hasn’t had a meltdown since he was born, so the odds of it happening at the store seem pretty slim, but still. It is way harder to go to the store with a baby cause I don’t want to be running around looking for everything and if I get to the checkout and forgot something, well, too bad.

Gina stopped by yesterday for a bit. I had Kassie’s bridesmaid dress for Gina’s wedding and Gina wanted to compare swatches to it. She stayed for a bit and hung out with Jackson. It was good to have some company but Jackson was just such a handful. He was good while Gina was here, but he spit up all day long, cried EVERY time I burped him, and did not want to nap at all yesterday. And when he did fall asleep, he woke up 45 minutes later. So, we had a long day. By the time Jon got home around 6:15, I was so done and so tired. And it was rainy, so it just made it worse.

I am definitely taking more enjoyment in Jackson though. Still not enough to feel like having kids was the best decision for us (because really, going to Iceland and moving to Amsterdam for 3 months still sounds way better than having a baby), but I actually like when he wakes up and I get to hang out with him for an hour before he goes back down for a nap. Getting out of the house is still a pain in the ass and I still feel constricted by him cause I have to plan around when he eats and wakes up, but guys, he smiles now! Like, he gets so happy when you scratch his little face and he makes this baby laughs but he’s not old enough to really laugh yet. So it’s just the cutest freaking noise ever. I would totally upload the video of him smiling and laughing to Facebook (since I’m friends with some of you on FB), but you know I’m weird about having my baby out there. But omggggg, it just makes me melt. I have three videos of him doing it and I can just watch it on repeat.

Well, I’m off to go eat. I’ve been slacking on eating today since I had to juggle a baby and running errands. I kind of want to do something tonight with Jon, but we usually say that and then we don’t cause Jackson wakes up in the evening during rush hour and goes to bed by 7:45. I’m going back to work tomorrow too, so I need to make sure I have food prepared since I doubt I’ll want to take the time to prepare food so early in the morning. I already have to wake up early to pump at home and then pump again when I get to work. That’s definitely the downside of exclusively pumping. I take an hour in the mornings to empty completely (I usually get 12-16oz) and then if I’m busy at work in the morning, I can’t risk not pumping till 11, so I need to get one in before my shift starts… So I have to get there a little bit early and pump again (should be quicker though since it’ll only be 2 hours since my last pump) before work… I’m only doing a 4 hour day unless it’s going well and then I’ll stay for 8. I’m sort of torn about working longer shifts right now because I don’t want to work more than 4 hours at a time right now, but we’re about to take a few thousand out of savings this month to pay bills (since we had to pay the IRS over $3k and we just paid our car insurance and we had also just paid for my delivery). But I mean, this is what we have money in savings for. So maybe I should just enjoy my princess shifts until Jackson goes to daycare and then I can get back to working more. I did already decide that I’m not working 12 hour shifts (except on weekends) until Jackson sleeps through the night.

Okay, that was a tangent. I’m off to fill this belly.

Wedding Fun and CrossFit Nerves

I have no idea how my sweet little baby is still asleep right now, but I am going to start this blog post and most likely get interrupted within the next 5 minutes.

This past weekend was Jackson’s first sleepover with Grandma and Grandpa since Jon and I had a wedding to attend! I have to admit that I was probably a little too excited about it. The thought of uninterrupted sleep was pretty amazing (minus having to pump).

We got up early on Saturday morning because we wake up early every day because we have a baby now so sleeping in is a thing of the past, sadly. It took awhile to prepare Jackson for his sleepover and I had to shower and fix my hair since I knew I wouldn’t have time in the afternoon. We headed up to my mom and dad’s to drop Jackson off.

I missed him for like, 5 minutes and then I was over it and ready for some husband/wife time! (Not that kind of husband/wife time.) We tried to get my nails did at my favorite nail place, but they were all booked up, so I just decided to go to the wedding with some gnarly toenails. I’m a mom now. People can’t expect me to look put together anymore. But then we decided to eat Smashburger and I had a delicious shake.

We came home and I was so freaking tired but I had to pump so I couldn’t even nap. Then we changed and I was super grateful to have bought a dress awhile back that managed to fit these big ol’ titties. We headed out to the wedding after that!


That’s what two crazy parents look like on their first big night out! The wedding was really nice and simple and then we were off to Chris and Rachel’s house (the bride and groom) since the reception was in their yard!


They really did a fantastic job with the yard! It was a really casual wedding! Like, no announcer (I seriously cannot remember any words anymore. I have to ask Jon like, 2,099 times a day, “What’s that word for that one thing? I think it starts with an M.”) or anything, so really simple. It was fun though cause Kassie was in the wedding, Gina was there, and a few other acquaintances that I know through Kassie.


How handsome is he?! I love it when Jon gets dressed up!


13055419_10100413535853142_3209460554455025736_nGina, me, Kassie.


I really like this picture of us, except I’m wearing Jon’s jacket and look ridiculous!

We ended up hanging out for awhile and chatting with everybody, and then I think around 9:30 we finally left. I was so tired and I needed to pump and didn’t feel like trying to do it in my dress in the car again (and get milk all over my dress! dangit).

Once we got home, I couldn’t fall asleep! So my great night of sleep was two four hour increments of sleep because of pumping! Fail!

I won’t even lie- it was hard to go pick up Jackson. I was happy to see him, but it was so nice on Sunday morning laying in bed with Jon and getting ready without one of us having to tend to a baby. It was like a little flashback to my old life and I miss my old life so much!

I spent Sunday afternoon at home. I was bummed cause it was a beautiful day, but Jon had a friend in town so they went to get dinner and then his friend stopped by for a bit. I was busy trying to get schoolwork done and clean up the house, so I just never got out.

Monday was another day spent at home doing work. I went on a walk at night cause it was so nice out! Jon and I also made tacos for dinner- my first night cooking since Jackson was born! I just make simple food all the time so I was pretty proud of myself for actually making food for once! And Jackson slept from 10:30pm (Jon fed him then) until 4:40am! So I got 6 whole hours of sleep! Uninterrupted! Even when Jon does the night feeds, I still get out of bed to ask him to do them and I hear Jackson fussing, so that was my first solid 6 hours of sleep! Thankfully too, cause Jon got up right after I pumped and I never went back to sleep!

Today Jackson and I made out first trip out solo! Just to Costco because I figured if he cried there, it wouldn’t be as obvious. But it went so well! He didn’t fuss when I put him in the car seat (that never happens) and I wore him in Costco so he just looked around. He was half asleep by the time we left and didn’t fuss again when I put him in his seat! He’s such a good baby! I wanted to go to Target, but I figured my frozen stuff needed to get home and I wanted Jackson to nap at home for a bit too, otherwise he gets all grumpy.

I think I’m about to try and head to the CrossFit gym to do my barbell “test” after I pump again. I’m nervous to go and do it still! I feel so intimidated since I feel so out of shape! I don’t even know if I can squat! I don’t even know if I can run because my boobs hurt SO much these days! What if I can’t even do that?! And I haven’t even tried to lift since the c-section, so what if it hurts and I look like an idiot? But I’m going to try and just suck it up and go, cause I’ll never feel less nervous unless I get out there and just do it! I really hope that if I just tell the girl that I just had a baby 7 weeks ago (by c-section), she’ll understand. It’s not like I was breaking any records while I was pregnant either. It’ll be  a slow comeback. AND my right knee is killing me from sitting cross legged so much to rest my pump bottles on my legs! I stopped sitting like that but it’s still super painful. I’m worried about squatting with it hurting. UGH! But, I went to Target to get sports bras the other day since these girls are out of control and I took a quick postpartum picture. I know I’m still thin, but I mean… that isn’t my body. At all. My boobs are huge (although they don’t look nearly as big in the photo as in person) and I guess my stomach was way flatter than I realized before!


And here is a photo I had uploaded before. The photo on the left was 9 weeks pregnant, so I was still not showing at that time. I have no idea anymore how far along I was in the other photos. Not far, since I still had no belly.


Cabin Fever

I think I have cabin fever. I have been in the house for 2 1/2 days straight now! Jon should be home early-ish from work today unless a case comes up, so I’m hoping to venture out to run errands this afternoon at least! Jon’s parents stopped by on Wednesday morning again for about 30 minutes, but that’s it. Oh, and I took a walk yesterday and listened to Jackson groan with every single exhale for 90% of the walk. But other than that, I’ve remained in my pajamas the whole time (I actually did for the walk, too).

My, how times have changed! Jon had a regional meeting yesterday for work with a mandatory fun event last night (that was a comedy show at a local venue- I actually think that’s pretty awesome and he said it was a lot of fun), so he didn’t get home till almost 11pm. It was my first day with Jackson ALL day long, especially since he left at 6:30 in the morning. Surprisingly, I didn’t go too crazy, even though it wasn’t Jackson’s easiest day that we’ve had. Laura came over for about two hours in the evening and man, it just really is shocking how much things have changed! Instead of going out and grabbing dinner, I was feeding and bathing Jackson, putting him to bed, and preparing his night bottles. It’s just a little reminder of how monotonous life is right now and how my days just go in these cycles that revolve around this little 10lb fella.

My brother sent me a few of Jackson’s newborn photos! They’re definitely more of his style of photography and less of that typical soft newborn style, but I love them! Of course. Cause Jackson is adorable! And he smiles nonstop when I put him down for naps now and it is way too cute!


Ohmygosh, his back fuzz. It’s crazy how when you’re the mom, you think things like his back fuzz is just the cutest thing ever. It’s also crazy how dark this makes his hair look cause he is totally blonde!


I do sort of wish Jon had a head there, haha. But Jackson looks precious and so tiny in Jon’s big hands!


Anyway, I got the clearance to go back to working out! I haven’t yet… It’s not even that I’m not ready to work out, but it’s more that it seems so hard to juggle another thing with a baby. I feel like so much time is spent planning around him and when he eats and naps that it seems so hard to just get out! But I think I just need to go reactivate my LA Fitness membership and go when Jon gets home from work in the evenings, even if I hate going when it’s busy. Even if I just do the elliptical or run if the weights are too crazy, at least it’s something. I want to get the Groupon for the CrossFit gym too, but the owner said I need to come in for a barbell test before I can buy it and use it for the regular classes. I guess they typically expect people who buy it to use it for the beginner’s class. So, I should probably email them about that too. I’m just used to working out with the afternoon crowds which are usually smaller, and for some reason, I feel a little intimidated to go into a brand new CrossFit gym with the big evening crew postpartum. Not only have I not worked out at all now in over 2 months and even those were easier workouts since I was pregnant, but I also have to come back slowly from the c-section. At least when I went to new gyms while I was pregnant, if I was slacking, it was obvious why. I don’t even think anybody else would care or notice, but it’s just hard to have to scale everything after I used to be so in shape so competitive way back in the day.

I suppose I should go work on my powerpoint presentation! I have two powerpoints to do and two discussion postings before next Sunday and then I’m out of school for the semester! Woohoo! One year of grad school down! I’m glad that the group paper is over with. That was so frustrating and I won’t even get into how frustrating the rest of the week was with it (asking ME to write your part twice when I’ve said no, especially after you told me that my edits to your part took away from your “writing style”)! And I need to shower cause I haven’t showered since Wednesday morning and I’m feeling the need to make myself presentable!

Tomorrow night is the big wedding night/Jackson’s first sleepover at Grandma’s! Gone are the days of just showering and getting ready for a wedding! Now we have to pack bottles and sleepover stuff and diapers and drop Jackson off at my mom and dad’s house (25 minutes north of here)! But we get one whole night without any feedings! And I am SO excited about it! Although I’m sure I’ll be happy to see Jackson on Sunday! I miss him when I leave for a few hours!

Okay, time to go be productive for real. Jackson will be up soon and I don’t want to miss this window to shower!

Weekend Updates

Happy Monday night! I forgot to update on this last week and even though it’s not really that exciting, I’ll include it because as a new parent, it’s the little things like this that are exciting! Jon and I started pulling up houses again for some reason last week and there was one that looked cute just down the road from us! We hopped in the Jeep to go look at it since Jackson happened to have just finished eating so it was perfect timing! Jackson was being good and for some reason, I had been craving sandwiches all day long! I remembered reading about this sandwich place on Yelp awhile back, so I pulled it up and we went!


It was this little Italian place and it was so good! The meats were delicious there! I happen to freaking love salami and my sandwich was awesome! Everything is always so planned these days with Jackson, so it was nice to just kind of get up and go without much planning. We didn’t even take a diaper bag with us since we had only left the house to go drive a few minutes away!

We had a busy weekend around here and I’m feeling a little more refreshed (but exhausted) after having some time out of the house! On Friday, I went up to my mom and dad’s house and dropped Jackson off so I could go to Target and drop my card off at the vet! Dr. Lobeck (the one who talked to Jon) came out and reassured me again that we made the right decision and even said that he was personally glad that we didn’t drag out a bad situation. I felt even better after hearing that, because as a nurse, I’m always aware of when patient’s family members are dragging out bad situations and I would never want to put somebody (or my cat) that I love through that! Although, I still miss Tommy a ton and I still wish he could be here with us! I came home fairly early on Friday night and relaxed with Jon since that’s really all we do after 7pm these days! #thatmomlife

Saturday morning I slept until 10:30! 10:30!!!! Jon got up and did the morning feeds with Jackson and I seriously had no idea it was 10:30 when I got up! I had a message from Crista when I got up about meeting up with her and Billy at the Dogwood Festival, so Jon and I decided we would do that. We totally thought we could make it down there by 12:30, but life with a baby is much harder than without a baby. Being somewhere in 2 hours without notice is pretty much not going to happen anymore.

But we made it to the Dogwood Festival and had a really good time! We went last year and it was so hot last year! This year was way cooler! It got warm in the sun, but I kept having to put my jacket on whenever we would walk in the shade! Thankfully, Jackson was pretty good the whole time we were there and only fussed around the time that he was supposed to eat.



This is the first picture I have of the three of us! I can’t believe it! I need to get a better one where you can see his face and I’m not wearing him!


Piedmont Park, Atlanta.

Once we finished up at the Dogwood Festival, I was really craving a burrito for some reason so we went to Chipotle and grabbed dinner. After that, Jon and Billy went to watch golf at Crista and Billy’s and Crista and I went to Ponce City Market for some ice cream. It was about 7pm after that and I was beat and so ready to get in bed! Once we got home though, I somehow managed not to get in bed till 10pm and that is just way too late for me (but that keeps happening!).

Sunday morning we woke up and Jon’s parents came over right after we got up. They only stayed for about 30 minutes since they had to get going to Nashville for a conference, but it was good to see them and I’m glad that they got to hang out with Jackson for awhile! Once they left, I decided to be productive and head out to Whole Foods.

Once I got home, I prepared some breakfast stuff (ham, onions, mushrooms, tomatoes, and shredded cheese for my morning eggs) for the first time in forever! I’ve been making egg and bagel sandwiches every single day lately so I thought I’d switch it up!

As soon as I finished up preparing my breakfast stuff, Jackson got up so we headed up to my mom and dad’s house again just to get out for a bit. We got there around 4:30 so we decided to just stay for dinner. We ate some burgers and then headed back since I had a grad school meeting at 8:30.

Unfortunately, that meeting lasted an hour (turns out, our paper is due on the 13th and I thought it was due on the 17th!). A group of three of us have to put together a business proposal and now we have to merge all of our parts and edit them. This one girl has been a big “follower” in the group and has been somewhat difficult to work with. Today, she texted us, “Good morning. With only a limited amount of time left to complete this assignment, I would like to forgo my portion of passing around the paper for correction. Please send me your suggestions for my section and I will correct them myself and resend them to add to the completed paper.” Um. What?! Let’s not try to play off your laziness as being helpful somehow! I basically told her that we all need to edit the paper because it’s a group project! She completely disregarded that after I said I had been editing for 2 hours so far and told me she would fix her part as soon as I send her the corrections. Why should the other group member and I have to spend all the time editing and you think you don’t have to? We have three full days. I got through editing her section and mine today, and the other group member was going to do it tonight. That gives her TWO full days to read through and make edits. Through a million texts today, she still never mentioned when she would read it and make her edits to our portions. Jon said I should email the professor about her (he listens to our conference calls since I usually do them in the dining room when he’s room) since she has been kind of difficult the whole time, but I’m not going to. But really. Come on. Do your dang part and read through the paper! I didn’t want to read through 15 pages either but I’m doing it! And she said she is busy tomorrow cause her daughter has cheerleading. Um, take your laptop. I sat there for an hour in the middle of the night while I was pumping, so I’m sure you can open up a word document while you’re at cheerleading.

Anyway, this afternoon I went and met up with Lizzie, a girl who I went to nursing school with and used to come out clubbing back in the day. It was so good to see her and she bought Jackson so much stuff! It was so sweet of her, but I always feel bad when people buy gifts for him! But either way, I still hadn’t seen her in way too long and was glad to catch up with her! She just started working in my ER and moved out there (she was living about an hour away) so I’m sure I’ll be seeing more of her!

I need to get ready for bed and get to sleep! I was going to try to be in bed by 9 but forgot that I need to pump again! Dangit!

Sleeping In & New Friends

Hello 🙂 I feel nice and refreshed since I just got up for the day at 11. I had asked Jon to do the morning feed at 6:40 since he has to be up at 7 for work, and he said he was too tired. I was so irritated so I went back to bed with Jackson and fed him, and then Jon came in and offered to do it. No dude, thanks, I got it. He apologized later for it while I was pumping but it’s still so annoying. I never sleep uninterrupted! If I slept for an entire 6 hours straight, I would be ready to run a marathon or something crazy. Even when I have slept for 6 hours, I wake up listening to Jackson and have Jon go feed him, and even that is rare since I have to pump. Ugh. I get so irritated about things like that and really, Jon is fantastic and super helpful. I couldn’t ask for a better partner in this whole parenting thing. I know I come across as being angry with him when I’m really just angry at this whole new lifestyle. I want him to go hang out with friends and to go work out and to do anything else he wants or needs to do! But then I get frustrated because I’m stuck at home with a baby all the time and I don’t ever get time away! I always have to worry about pumping, even if I do get out of the house! Or my boobs hurt nonstop while I’m gone! I can’t ever just “get away” from being a mom.

Anyway, yesterday I had coffee with my Facebook friend, Carley. She’s the one that I met online in a mom type group. We had planned on going on a walk and it was a perfect day for it, but as soon as we were about to leave, I realized Jon had the stroller. Of course. So Carley and I met at Starbuck’s instead. It was great! I haven’t made many new friends since I got out of high school other than Crista (I did make a handful of friends in college, but nobody that I have really stayed in touch with), so this is like, my first real adult friend. Not that I ever really minded not having tons of friends. I kind of like my few friends that I’ve had for 16 years now. But it was really nice to talk to another mom! Her baby is only a week older than Jackson so we were discussing parenting and life and it was just really nice. We got along great and it wasn’t awkward at all! I feel like I had known her for awhile!

I’m about to shower (I hope- Jackson is stirring so the shower may just wait till tonight or tomorrow) and then head out with Jackson. I really want to run to CVS and print off a few pictures of Tom to put in a thank you card for the vet. I also need to run to Target for a few things, but I think I’ll drop Jackson off at my mom and dad’s house before I head down to Target. No need to take the baby if I have somebody to watch him!

Jon’s parents will be here tomorrow for a few hours. They’re driving through on their way to Nashville so I think we’re having dinner with them either here or at Stone Mountain. I’m glad they’ll get to spend some time with Jackson alone, since both times they’ve seen him, tons of people have been around.

On Monday night, the children’s hospital is having a recruitment event that I think I might go to. I really don’t want to work full time, but I still think I would love to work on an inpatient unit there. I also don’t know if I feel like going to an event like that alone, but I think I might just branch out and do it. I can always leave if it’s awkward. I really liked the atmosphere when I had my interview last summer, but I think I’m just comfortable with my ER job right now and I know juggling two jobs with a new baby is too much. I still have to quit my second job now and keep putting it off! I just hate to leave a hospital where I have 6 years of experience, a ton of flexibility, and good pay!

Alrighty, I finally finished my coffee (and this blog post, 3 hours later), so time to hop in the shower and get Jackson ready to go see my mom and dad!