38 Week Appointment and Taxes

What a day! I’ve been pretty tired all day today! I woke up this morning at 8:20 to jump in the shower and head out the door to my 38 week (and 4 day) OB appointment. I was seeing a different doctor again today and the doctor last week and this week were both nice, but I really prefer my own doctor. The doctor checked me today and said my cervix is really soft but still no dilating! I know that being dilated doesn’t necessarily mean anything and she assured me that I could be 0cm and still go into active labor without any issues, but I just wanted some progress! She also mentioned again that after 40 weeks, it’s possible to induce at any time, but that it wouldn’t be required to induce me until 41 weeks. She said unless I start dilating though, induction isn’t really recommended because the cervix just isn’t ready. I had been wanting to ask her to strip my membranes today, but honestly, her checking my cervix was so uncomfortable today that I just wanted her hand out of there! She stuck her fingers through my cervix and she was pushing on the baby’s head! And she kept doing it to make sure she was feeling a head and not a butt. I could have told her I’d already been checked and he was head down, and had this entire, full grown baby turned himself completely upside down, I think I would have felt it. My next appointment is on Tuesday at 11. Thankfully, Jon is going to be able to go with me! He actually had a case come up and I told him to go to it, but his coworker told him he needs to come to the baby’s appointment instead since it’ll be our talk about induction and where to go from here! So close!

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I snapped this shot when I parked my car at home after the appointment because my belly looked so weird. It was crazy from the top but I can’t capture than angle very well. It never looks how it does to me. But there’s Jackson’s big ol’ butt pushing out there! Can’t wait to see his tiny little butt in person!

I was actually going to go to the gym today, but then I came home and was starving so I ate while I cuddled Tom and watched TV. Then I took a nap and it was so hard to get up off the couch. And I’m still exhausted. I could seriously sleep forever. Not sure what is going on! Jon got home shortly after my nap and I’ve been hanging out with him and working on some schoolwork, but it’ll probably be a low key night around here, as they have been.

Yesterday I think I started nesting! Or maybe I was just feeling productive for one day because I sure haven’t been feeling productive today! At least I’ve managed to keep our house clean though, which is a pretty big deal in itself after how the last 38 weeks have gone! Jon and I finally got stuff done with the baby’s room! We are still waiting for the glider, which is actually supposed to arrive today according to Rooms to Go, but our porch is still empty so I’m not really sure where it is…

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I’ll have to get some better ones on my real camera eventually, but this is a quick shot. Those are all my cloth diapers by the dresser! I think I was mostly excited about organizing my diapers, honestly. The glider is going to go next to the dresser over in that corner. There’s more room there than it looks like in this photo. And then we just have to hang some stuff up over the crib and we’ll be done for now. We aren’t doing a changing table because we already had that dresser and didn’t want to spend the money on it, and I’m fine with using waterproof pads on a couch or bed to change him. Or the floor. I don’t really care.

Tom definitely had a blast running around yesterday with all the boxes everywhere. Jon and I put together a bunch of the baby stuff to get it all ready and I’m definitely feeling more prepared. Now, one of these days I’ll pack a bag for the hospital!

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Tom is sleeping there right now. In the pack n’ play. I wonder if he knows that’s not a bed for him.

Jon and I took a look at our taxes last night too. I think we may have them professionally filed, but Jon entered our information in and it looks like we’ll owe about $4000! AH! He changed his deductions for a big call weekend to 12 and forgot to change it back, and then he was a 1099 employee for awhile. We have about 1/4 of that saved up in a separate account because we knew he’d owe on his 1099 income, but still. Wow. I’ve never owed before and definitely not that much. Isn’t it depressing to be a middle class family? I’m hoping if we have them done professionally, they can find a way to decrease that number. I’m definitely feeling poor knowing I’ll be out of work (unpaid) for awhile with Jackson! I’m already thinking about how I can work more over the summer when I’m not in school so we can save up. We definitely have money in savings for stuff like this, but we want to move out of our condo! At this rate, we’ll be in this tiny condo for the rest of our lives. Good thing I like the location so much!

Anyway, I’m off to get some more school stuff done for the evening! I have some discussion postings due tonight and a literature search assignment I need to work on. I just finished up a paper today and am waiting for Jon to proof read it. Ugh, grad school. I can’t believe I still have two years left of this after this semester! I’m so glad we don’t have classes over the summer cause I already need a break!

 

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Pre-Labor Ramblings

Happy Tuesday from the Still-Pregnant one! I had a pretty decent weekend overall! Friday night was kind of a lazy night, even though I had really wanted to do something. I’m almost never off on weekends so it was exciting to have a weekend night off with Jon, but he was too tired to do much. Turns out, once we ran some errands, I had a fairly productive night around the house.

Saturday morning we woke up early for some reason and went to my parents to drop some stuff off (we have no storage in our house!) and went and had coffee together. I’ve been super emotional lately and Jon and I were talking about not wanting a colic-y baby. I said it would be miserable to listen to a baby cry all the time and he told me he thought I’d be a selfish parent and it made him worried. He said he wouldn’t want his baby crying because it would mean the baby isn’t happy, and I wouldn’t want my baby crying because it would mean I’m miserable. I tried to explain that while I don’t really want to listen to a baby cry, I also don’t want my kid to be miserable either. So my feelings were all hurt and it totally ruined my mood!

I ignored my bad mood long enough to run some more errands with Jon (our life is running errands lately, apparently) and then we went and saw 13 Hours: The Secret Soldiers of Benghazi. It was actually really good and we were two of the four people in the theater! I also peed SEVEN times during the movie. A pregnant woman should not drink coffee before going to the movies.

We came home after and Jon had to get his hair cut, so I started working on framing pictures from Europe. I finally finished that and then we had to go return all the millions of extra frames I had bought. My mom is coming over this weekend to help hang up our photo wall and I can’t wait! I’ll post some pictures! I need one more picture to fill up a frame, so I think I may look around for at Atlanta one, actually. I was super bummed though cause I realized I have NO idea what happened to all my paintings I got in China. They were framed and everything, so it is really beyond me where they could be. (In search of my China paintings, I finally found the other Brooks shoe that I bought in Portland over a year ago and hadn’t been able to find! So now it’s like I have a new pair of shoes!)

We had a good talk on Saturday night about our talk over coffee and Jon thinking I’d be a selfish parent. I don’t talk to him about it much, but I have cried about 2087 times in my car thinking about if our baby isn’t healthy. I was actually just crying on Friday in the car (I cry so much in the car! Pregnancy hormones are a bitch!) thinking about how I hope that even if Jackson isn’t 100% healthy, I just hope he doesn’t have anything that will prevent him from being happy. I see so many kids with mental or physical disabilities in the ER that know they’re different in some way and then they become suicidal or depressed and it’s terrible thinking that could be MY kid. Imagine how helpless you would feel as a parent. And I also don’t think Jon understands when I explain to him that I don’t want to lose myself in having a baby. I still want to be ME. I know my identity will change and include “Mom,” but I still want to be my own person too. I hate it when people have kids and that becomes their life and that’s it. How can you be happy if you’re only living to fulfill your child? But he takes that as me just wanting to live my own life and not accepting that our life will change. I can’t even really explain it, so maybe that’s why he doesn’t get it. Either way, we still had a good talk and we’ve been getting along really well lately and I’m just happy that things are so even and calm right now before the baby comes!

Anyway, that night I thought I was going into labor. I had horrible back pain, lower abdominal pain, nausea, and I was having tons of contractions that were really increasing the back pain. But no. At 1:30, it all stopped. And then I was just exhausted at work all day Sunday and despite spending 13 hours on my feet (I seriously barely sat down- I was hoping gravity would make Jackson decide it was time to come out), still no labor. I did have very painful and swollen feet though.

Monday morning I worked in he ER for 4 hours. Super busy 4 hours. And I had to start an IV with my hands completely numb (again, thanks pregnancy). Pretty weird. Thankfully he had huge veins or I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have been able to feel anything. I can’t feel hot and cold or wet or dry. Annoying.

I went and got my hair done yesterday afternoon. My hair guy switched locations and I ended up being right by my mom and dad’s house! I didn’t realize that it was right there or I would have napped before going. Instead, I was so out of it during my hair appointment. It was 3 1/2 hours long and I seriously probably fell asleep about 5 times while he was coloring it, and then I was so incredibly hot while he was cutting it that I was miserable. I get hot flashes every afternoon (always the worst right around 3) and I seriously thought I might pass out. Being that hot also made me swell like a fat cow which made it even worse. My hair is so dark again! It looks kind of weird to me, but it’s actually super close to the color I usually get. I just hadn’t colored it since June! I’m hoping to get a few washes in before Jackson is born so it’s not so severe in our labor and delivery photos, but I also hate washing my hair if it doesn’t need it. So we’ll see. I’m iffy on the cut for some reason. My hair is way shorter than it was but I think I just need to style it myself and see what I think of it. I always hate it when they style it for me at the salon.

I did some schoolwork last night before watching The Bachelor with Jon. I was totally shocked at who Ben picked to stay, for anybody who watches it. I totally thought he was going to keep Amanda and send JoJo home.

I stayed in bed till 11 this morning! I woke up and then fell back to sleep and literally snoozed for 1 1/2 hours. I’m hoping my body is requiring all this sleep because labor is right around the corner! I’m getting so impatient!

Jon doesn’t have any cases today, so we’re going to work on the baby’s room. I was supposed to hang out with Crista today but I haven’t heard from her, so not sure if that’ll happen. I don’t particularly care either way. I’m definitely fine with staying inside on his rainy day. Although I do need to grocery shop pretty badly. But I have no appetite, so grocery shopping just keeps getting postponed.

Tomorrow morning is another OB appointment! Everybody cross your fingers that I’ve at least started dilating! And hopefully this afternoon, I’ll get some more of Jackson’s room done. Or maybe I won’t and we’ll bring him home to a room full of stuff!

Girls Night and Other Ramblings

Ah FRIDAY! I’m off work tomorrow (YAY!) since I emailed my boss saying I can’t work two 12 hour shifts in a row at this point, so she took me off the schedule tomorrow. I’m actually supposed to be meeting up with my grad school group for a big project, but nobody is really quick to respond to anything so I have no idea if that’ll happen. Can I just say that I hate group projects? Maybe I feel more rushed since my brain isn’t functioning like normal anymore and I know it’s going to get worse when the baby comes (and we won’t be able to meet in person either then), but I just wish people would have the decency to respond. I started emailing the group over two weeks ago now and we still don’t have a meeting time set for tomorrow.

I spent all day yesterday working on my paper. I’m having such a hard time focusing on school and I realized I kind of wanted to take my 1/3 of the way finished paper in a different direction, so I barely made any progress. It was kind of disappointing. Also, our breaker tripped the other night and the lights in the front half of our house went out. Yesterday, the lights flickered ALL DAY LONG! It’s super dark in my house so I have to have lights on to see, but I was getting a headache from them and getting so distracted. I’m surprised I didn’t rip the chandelier off the ceiling over our table out of frustration! Unfortunately, I’m not productive if I go out of the house to get work done, so I knew it’d be pointless to try and take my huge spread of papers to a coffee shop. So I suffered with my obnoxious lights and barely made any progress on schoolwork!

Last night I met up with Gina, Kassie, Rachel, and Laura for a last girls’ night before Jackson arrives! We met up at Grub Burger Bar, which was decent. For a burger, fries, and shake, it cost $15 though. A little steep in my opinion. The burger was good though. It didn’t taste beefy at all, thankfully. Then we all went to Old Navy and then Babies R’ Us. Rachel just passed her 20 week mark with her baby girl, so it was fun looking at all the baby stuff and talking about what we’re going to do when our babies come!

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Rachel, Laura, Gina, Me, Kassie.

I was shocked that those boots fit over my cankles, by the way! They were super tight on my calves, but oh well! I tried on other boots but they wouldn’t even zip up over my ankles! And let’s not talk about how tight the top of those leggings were when I put them on yesterday.

I got home last night and actually worked on my paper for a bit. I would have kept going, but Jon wanted to sleep on the couch and I couldn’t see any of my research articles that I had printed out so I had to stop working!

I slept in late again today. I wanted to get up early and go to a 9:45 class (so I had to get up at like, 8:45- not early really) at LA Fitness since I’ve been so unmotivated to work out, but I couldn’t drag myself out of bed. I’m so tired of feeling so drained lately. I have a feeling that although the pregnancy is a large contributor, it’s also my horrible diet and lack of physical activity. I have basically been living off of fruit, dairy, and grains, and I basically never ate dairy or grains before. Well, I’d have cheese on my eggs and that was about it. My vegetable and meat intake is super low compared to my norm. I’m really hoping my appetite goes back to normal once Jackson gets here because I hate that all I want to eat is stuff I would normally never eat.

I definitely woke up today hoping to go into labor again today! My hands were bothering me so much this morning and just sitting down at dinner last night, it was incredibly uncomfortable with Jackson being so low. I wonder if I can just reach up there and pull him out! Is it sad that I’m hoping the 12 hour shift I have to work on Sunday will put me into labor?! It’s even at the hospital that I’m delivering at, so it would be perfect! And my doctor is on call this weekend! Maybe tomorrow I’ll go to the gym and hop on the elliptical and just go crazy for 20 minutes and hope it jump starts everything. Jon has been so nice though and he picked me up out of bed again this morning so I could get up to pee when he left for work! I’m feeling pretty thankful for him right now (even if he wouldn’t massage the uterus spot on my feet last night when I asked- I NEED TO GO INTO LABOR!). Too bad I just really don’t feel like he’s coming early… I have a feeling I’m going to be induced at 41 weeks.

An electrician came by and fixed my lights for me! Hallelujah! It was a simple breaker part that needed to be switched out so now I can happily work on my paper again today!

Jon should be home fairly soon. He though he’d be home around 2-3, which I really am hoping for. It’s a BEAUTIFUL day out and I’d love to get some time in with him for once in the afternoon. Lately he’s been doing a lot of late cases and he has been falling asleep really early on the couch, so I don’t get to spend much time with him. We need to try and finish up the baby room if we can (we won’t be able to hang anything yet since we need to wait for our glider to get delivered before seeing where the pictures go), and I’d love to get our pictures finally hung up over our couch! Maybe I’ll even pack my baby bag this weekend.

Alright, time to go work on my paper some more before Jon gets home.

Life Updates

Ah, life lately. I don’t even know where to go with this post. I feel like I’m sort of stuck in the middle of a huge transition but not there yet. It’s weird. I don’t feel like myself at all. Mentally, I’m the same, but physically? This body isn’t mine. Even my belly is different. I have contractions nonstop now. It literally hurts sometimes to try and get out of bed or off the couch. It feels like Jackson is ripping apart my bladder with his tiny little hands. I am so completely and utterly exhausted in a way I never have been before. My hands are numb 24/7 and my fingers hurt to bend. Jackson moves around a lot less because he’s a fully formed baby in my belly that isn’t even that big, so I don’t even get to enjoy as many baby tumbles. And I feel like when he moves a lot, he just causes me to have more contractions. I have no appetite anymore and can barely eat in the evenings because it makes me so nauseated at night. I woke up the other night for 2 hours and was nauseous and uncomfortable and it was my very first time thinking, “Please, just let me go into labor right now.” I have heard so many different labor experiences so I feel like I’ll be able to identify being in labor pretty easily, but I’m so curious what it’s going to be like for me. I want to know when it’s going to happen and how. I want to know if I’ll be able to deliver vaginally or will we have complications. I want to know if Jackson is going to be healthy. I’m definitely getting impatient, but also still can’t believe that I’m about to have a baby around 24/7. I’m soaking in trips to the grocery store alone. Leaving the house in 10 minutes. Showering without worrying about what Jackson is doing. It’s a strange time.

I haven’t been to the gym since last Monday. Like, over a week ago last Monday. I’ve been pretty busy with other stuff and yesterday when I did have time, I was so completely exhausted from being up for two hours in the middle of the night and having to wake up to go to work in the morning. I actually do really miss it, but at the same time, I feel like there are so many other things I need to do. Like get my hair cut and colored (I need to schedule that appointment). I kept it up till close to the end and maybe I’ll make it again, but I’ve also packed my schedule full with lunch dates and dinners and spending time with friends before the baby comes. I guess spending time with friends is what’s really winning out over the gym. (Grad school takes up the majority of my other time.)

Jon and I bought our glider last night for the baby’s room finally and then I decided I needed ice cream. I know it’s weird, but sometimes when my stomach feels unsettled, I crave ice cream. And my stomach is unsettled always at night now. I mentioned a place in Buckhead that I always see on the side of the road and want to try, so we did a little impromptu “date night” to go check out a the Shake Shack.

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I surprisingly ate 1/2 my cheeseburger and I really didn’t like my shake to start with, but by the time I finished it, I loved it and wanted more. I also thought the fries were delicious but I think I just like potato products right now because they’re so plain. We were out till 10pm and got lost trying to find our car and it was freezing out, but it was fun. We rarely go out to eat anymore because we’re trying to save money, I have no desire to get off the couch to go out most of the time, and I also have no appetite. But I also kind of cherished that silly little quickie burger place because it’s going to be harder to run out to grab a shake or burger late at night once Jackson in here. I’m going to miss our time together.

Things on the married front are going well. Jon has done a few things that really frustrated me lately and I brought them up to him and instead of getting defensive, he’s apologized and given me massages to “make up for it.” Things have just kind of evened out. Maybe I’m too exhausted for my hormones to make me moody now, but I’m just kind of glad we have time to spend together. It’s also kind of cute because he’s all worried that everything I do is because I’m going into labor. I called him from work the other morning (which I always do) and he didn’t answer. He texted me and said, “Is everything ok?” Haha. And every time I have pain when I move (which is all the time), he’s like, “Are you okay? Do you think it’s labor?” I definitely think I’m more calm about the whole labor/baby thing than he is. I just feel like it’ll happen, we’ll know, and we’ll have time to get stuff together at the last minute. He’s like, “Um, don’t you need to pack your bag for the hospital now?” and “Maybe we should type of a birth plan for the hospital.” He’s going to be such a good dad. I really can’t wait to see his face when he sees his baby for the first time since being dad has always been one of his life goals. He has talked about being a dad since I first met him almost eight years ago. (I just got teary eyed- I cry about EVERYTHING!) I think being new parents will be very hard on our marriage because I know myself and I’m realistic- it’ll be hard. But I love him and it’ll be good too.

Anyway, I should go. I need to make breakfast and get some work done on my paper before getting ready for my girls night tonight! I’m excited to see my friends tonight and I’m even more excited because I slept great last night! When Jon got out of the shower, he was like, “You must have slept terrible. You were breathing hard and groaning all night long.” Haha. I slept great though aside from waking up for one contraction and then I fell right back to sleep! I must just be loud in my late pregnancy days!

 

21 Question Survey

I stole a quick survey from Jessie to do since I’m tired and my hands are so numb these days that typing is honestly getting kind of obnoxious. Plus, I’m about to start working on a paper and that’s enough to have to type.

One//Are you named after someone?

Nope. But my mom did want to name me Elizabeth Rae and my dad hated it, so I’m Elizabeth Marie. I actually wish they had named me Elizabeth Rae since Marie is so common.

Two//When was the last time you cried?

Today. Like, a few hours ago. Just a little bit but I was just thinking about if Jackson comes out and isn’t a healthy baby boy! I literally cry all the time. Like, probably 4-5 times a week. And always when I’m driving and thinking about various things that could happen related to Jackson.

Three//Do you have kids?

So close!

Four//If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?

Who would answer no to this? I like to think so. I’ve managed to keep the same friends for 16 years, so I must do something right!

Five//Do you have a guilty pleasure?

Naps. I don’t even know if that counts. But I just really love naps lately. And sleeping in. That never happens anymore, but I always feel like I should be doing something productive with my time but I seriously love to sleep!

Six//Do you like handwriting?

What? Handwriting? Handwriting what? I don’t prefer to handwrite anything. I have cubital tunnel syndrome in my right arm and tend to get pretty uncomfortable if I have to write anything longer than half a page. And now I have carpal tunnel from being pregnant so even holding a pen is a chore.

Seven//What is your favorite cereal?

The 365 brand Frosted Flakes! Only three ingredients!

Eight//What is the first thing you notice about people?

Their teeth. I wish it was something better, but really, it’s teeth.

Nine//Do you have any pets?

YES! I will have cats for the rest of my life. And a dog because Jon wants a dog (but we have to get a house first. I’m in no hurry). But we have Tom and Kitty! I’ve had both since they were kittens. Kitty is turning 7 next month and she’s my favorite fluff ever. She’s seriously the most perfect, typical cat you could ever dream of and she loves her mama! Tom is about to be 3 next month and he’s a typical orange cat- so he’s obnoxious and loves attention.

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A very old picture of Tom sitting on Kitty. He likes to sit on top of her and lick her face before he attacks her. He’s way fatter now though. This is also the only picture I care to include in this survey because cats.

Ten//Scary movies or happy endings?

Both. I won’t watch a scary movie if I’m home alone, but I like both for sure. We’re not big scary movie watchers around the house though cause Jon kind of hates them, so I only get to watch them when he owes me!

Eleven//Favorite TV Show?

I watch Nashville, The Bachelor/Bachelorette, Teen Mom, Catfish, Jane the Virgin, Real Housewives of the OC, Below Deck, and Southern Charm. Wow. Please, judge me! I’m actually not a huge TV watcher and the only shows I watch every week are Nashville and the Bachelor/Bachelorette. The others are my go-tos On Demand that I watch if I’m feeling lazy and just want something mindless on TV.

Twelve//Summer or winter?

Summer. There’s no competition. I’m more of a spring/fall type of girl, but I hate being cold. I prefer shorts, tank tops, and flip flops. All day, e’ery day.

Thirteen//Hugs or kisses?

Hugs. Is it crazy to admit that I’m not actually big on kissing? It can be fun when you first start dating somebody, but overall, the thought of mixing all our spit is just not really sexy.

Fourteen//What is the furthest you’ve been away from home?

Australia or China. I know I spent longer in transit to Australia (exactly 24 VERY LONG hours) than China (17 hours), but technically, I’d have to look at a map to see which is farther away from here. I believe those times both included my layovers, although I never have long layovers.

Fifteen//Do you have any special talents?

No. As a matter of fact, when Jon and I broke up one time, he even told me that one of the things he didn’t like about me was that I don’t have talents. He said, “I can sing, dance, and play the piano!” (He played the piano when he was a kid and he sings to the radio. He also danced in clubs, although his rhythm is good.) He denies ever saying that, but honestly, how could a person ever forget a line like that? I’m pretty sure I told all of my friends immediately after he made that ridiculous comment.

Sixteen//Where were you born?

I can’t say because then you’d know the answer to all my secret questions, but it was just outside of Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

Seventeen//What are your hobbies?

TRAVELING! I also like hiking and working out. And long walks on the beach. I like reading too, actually, but since I’ve been in school for the last bajillion years of my life, I just don’t get to read like the old days.

Eighteen//What color are your eyes?

Green. I actually wore green contacts in high school to make them even more green, but I stopped. I guess I decided my own eyes were good enough or something. And then I had Lasik when I was 22 so now I don’t even wear contacts.

Nineteen//Favorite movie?

I don’t even have one. I like chick flicks though. I also love food documentaries on Netflix! I’ve seen pretty much every documentary about how unhealthy food is in the US and GMOs. I’m really not a huge movie watcher. I really have to be in the mood to sit down and watch a movie. My attention span is too short for all of that. Jon and I try all the time to watch movies and I almost always get up and do something else.

Twenty//What color is your car?

Blue.

Twenty-one//What did you want to be when you grew up?

A bus driver. Then I turned 7. Then a teacher. Then I turned 18. Then I realized that not only do I not like kids, but I don’t like any subject enough to teach it. I declared my major as psychology. But then I took a 2000 level psychology class and totally hated the professor. He even asked me how I plan to start IVs if I can’t figure out a podcast. Douchebag. I already knew how to start IVs and for the record, I still have never in my life listened to a podcast and don’t even have a clue where podcasts come from, nor do I care. So I decided I wanted to be a dentist, even though getting a masters in psychology seemed like it would take too long. But then I realized that I really would never want to be in school for that long. So when I joined the Army, I decided to be come a nurse (I was a medic in the Army and thought, “Self, I could do this. I could be a nurse.”). Then I became a nurse and have spent the last 1290 years in school anyway so I could have really been a dentist or a psychologist. And I also love working with kids now too, so I could have also been a teacher. But nursing has actually been super flexible and I can make some pretty stellar money doing it, plus the schedule is great so I’ve also taken a ton of trips, so I’m good with it for now. Although, I do not want to be a nurse for the rest of my life. I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up now. (Hopefully a manager, since that’s what I’m getting my masters in!)

Weekend Updates. 37 Week Updates (sort of)

Just stopping by for a quick hello (it will probably not be quick) since I need to get my butt into gear and get some grad school stuff done for reals. I’ve been slacking so much lately and have some big assignments due soon!

This past weekend Jon and I went to my parent’s cabin! We used to go once a month or every other month, but lately it has just been so busy that we rarely go. We both love going though so we decided before Jackson’s arrival, we needed to make it out there!

I won’t recap the entire time because we tend to just sit around and read or talk or watch the fire a lot. I did eat fried plantains two nights in a row for dinner and now that’s really all I want to eat. We also finally took my topless photos! Not that I will ever be showing anybody and Jon totally did not understand why I needed to have pictures of my boobs, but this is the last time my boobs will probably ever be perky and full! They’re going to breastfeed Jackson and turn into little flappy pancakes probably. I just want to remember how nice they once were!

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36 weeks, 6 days. Also, take note of that outfit. I wear those boots every day because my feet are too swollen for my other boots. I wear either those leggings or black leggings every day. Always one of those Target maternity tank tops, but sometimes with a v-neck t-shirt, and some sort of sweatshirt that’s open in the front. That has been all I’ve been able to wear for weeks now. SO BORING.

We headed up to Chattanooga on Saturday morning. For some reason, when we go to the cabin, Chattanooga always comes up. However, it is actually way closer for us to go to Chattanooga from our house than it is to go from the cabin! But we really wanted Maple Street Biscuit Company so it was worth the drive! Besides, it’ll be nice to walk around, we thought! Except it was freezing so we literally walked around for like, 15 minutes after eating and that was it! However, we stopped into an outdoor store and Jon found a really awesome Black Diamond jacket for 1/2 off and I found a North Face fleece for 20% off! I never find sales on them and my size, so I was super excited! Turns out, it was 1/2 off! This is my favorite jacket hands down and I wear the one I have ALL the time. I have a girls size though and it just seems so short now, so I wanted to get the women’s style since the sleeves and length are longer in general.

We also had coffee in Chattanooga since that Maple Street doesn’t make lattes (so disappointed! the lattes at the Jacksonville location are so good!) and I posted this photo that is probably my most liked photo ever now on Facebook. I think more people liked this photo than the photo I posted when Jon and I got engaged, and since we have like 200 mutual friends (from the Army), you’d think that would have gotten more likes. Nope. Apparently pregnant woman with coffee on her belly wins.

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Almost the same outfit as above. But this time I had on a white tank top with a gray v-neck over it. You can really see my swelling there too. My hands, my face, my double chins. It has gotten pretty bad.

Yesterday we headed home around 11:30 and stopped by my mom and dad’s to drop off the towels and a blanket that I thought stunk (I think I’m hypersensitive to smells these days). We hung out for awhile and it was really nice to spend time with them. We try to go over on Sundays for dinner occasionally, but it has been so busy that I don’t think I’ve seen them since my baby shower on January 23rd! My mom keeps asking to come see the nursery but it’s really just a crib with random stuff scattered all over the floor still. One day.

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Our “Valentine’s Day” picture. Again, same outfit. But that’s my new jacket!

finally spent forever cleaning last night. I’ve been asking Jon to help since I cleaned the last time over a month ago, but his friend’s truck died so Jon left and went to take his friend’s dog all the way out to his house. I was in so much pain last night. I’m so glad the cleaning is done because I was seriously miserable after leaning over to vacuum under all our couches and beds and scrubbing all 1100sq/ft of our house on my hands and knees. Not fun. I also noticed that under our kitchen table, two of our wood slats are ruined! The whole top layer bubbled up and I have no idea what happened! The cats spill water off the table all the time, but I’m always super careful to clean it all up. I was wondering if one of the cats threw up there and the acid ate up the top layer of wood. Uh. Homeowner problems! But the house is now baby ready! Except for Jackson’s room. But we’re going to work on that this week.

Anyway, I need to go get some stuff done. The gym might happen tonight. I’m not motivated though and feel like I have other things to do (like blog). I have to get groceries and I wanted to go to Michael’s to find a frame for two pictures I bought in Belgium. Once we get these two framed, we can hang up our photo collage behind our couch finally! I have three other framed photos from our trip to Europe this year waiting! (I pretty much only hang artwork from travels up in my house. Although we do need to print out a wedding photo since we spent like, $200 on a custom made frame for that.)

 

Weekly Updates

I’m in the middle-ish of a 7 day stretch off work! Can I just tell you all how happy that makes me? I feel like I should pick up 4 hours either tomorrow morning or Monday morning, but right now, I’ll just hold off and see how I feel!

I worked Tuesday at my PCU job. It was a tough 12 hours. Easy as far as the workload there, but I was definitely feeling the effects of standing up for so long at 36.5 weeks pregnant. My back hurt as soon as I rolled out of bed, my feet were sore, my legs started swelling, and I was just overall really uncomfortable. I’m so glad I only have a few 12 hour shifts left before Jackson makes his debut.

Yesterday morning I had my 36 week appointment. They did the group B strep test and checked my cervix for the first time. The doctor said my cervix is still closed but is nice and soft, so I guess it’s getting ready for the baby! Unfortunately, my next two appointments are with other doctors but I see her again at 40 weeks, where we will discuss induction if we need to. Jon is going to that appointment with me so we can both be on the same page. My doctor said she’s on call a lot in March so I’m really hoping she’ll be the one to deliver Jackson! (Jon totally doesn’t understand why it matters who delivers our baby. Technically, it doesn’t, but I’ve been seeing her for the last three years now and she’s done all of my prenatal appointments so far.) Honestly, I don’t want to induce if we don’t have to since it can make labor even longer, so I’m asking my doctor her call days and we’ll be eating Polynesian sauce from Chik-Fil-A, eggplant parm, raspberry tea, massages, sex, whatever, in the 12 hours before her call shifts start! Hopefully he’ll just decide he’s ready and make his way out around 40 1/2 weeks (I want to make it without a baby for March 5th so we have just one more childless weekend!).

After my appointment, I picked Laura up since she was playing hooky from work! We went downtown and ate crepes at Julianna’s Crepes! The guy forgot to place the order for my dessert crepe so we were there for awhile, which was totally fine. Then I wanted coffee, so we went to get coffee, where we hung out even longer. I had been wanting to look at this baby consignment shop downtown so we went and spent forever decided if I should buy another diaper bag! It was the one that I really wanted but Jon said was too feminine and they had it for only $30 (originally $65). I decided against it since we have a really nice diaper bag already, but it was taunting me. And then we went to TJ Maxx and they had the SAME ONE! But I stayed strong. Instead I spent $60 on two new bracelets but I love them. And I actually wear bracelets a lot so at least I’ll get my money’s worth!

Really, I think I’m just so insanely bored with my clothing options that I just want anything to make me feel like a normal person! I know I’m coming to an end here with the pregnancy thing (which is kind of sad) and I’m hoping I take after my mom and get back into my pre-pregnancy pants within two weeks, but right now I am just so bored with getting dressed! I wear black leggings every day with my one maternity sweater from Target or I have three maternity tank tops that I’ll throw under a button up sweater (unbuttoned, of course- the only way it fits). My feet are also so swollen that I can only wear my slipper boots or gym shoes comfortably. I’ve always been a pretty boring person when it comes to fashion so I never thought I’d get tired of only having two options of what to wear basically, but I am!

Anyway, after I finished up with Laura, Jon and I went out to eat with his old coworkers. It was actually a lot of fun and it was good to see them. We used to play trivia on Wednesday’s with them but it’s a much larger group there so it was nice to just talk to them without quite so many people there! I did feel bad cause I asked for a cheese quesadilla and they put chicken on and it I had to send it back. But I don’t want chicken right now. At all. And I didn’t ask for it either!

I stayed up way too late last night reading The Cynical Pharmacist on Facebook and watching trash TV and then of course, at 6am, I was super uncomfortable again. I decided not to lay in bed forever like I usually do, but to get up and nap later.

So far, I’ve completed a discussion for school and started on my paper. I ate some breakfast. I’m on my 4th load of laundry (including sheets! FINALLY!) and did a load of dishes. I put the sheets on the crib even! So I’m making some progress at least and getting something productive done.

Tonight is book club so I have to read one more chapter for that. I’m considering going to the gym but really don’t feel like it cause I’m so tired, but I’ve only gone once this week so far! We’ll see. Jon and I are headed to the cabin tomorrow for our last little pre-baby trip and I’m super excited! And once we get home Sunday, we need to get in prep mode for Jackson’s arrival and get our floors/bathrooms deep cleaned! I’m sure he’s going to love that!

Alrighty, time to go work on my paper some more! I haven’t even finished the intro but at least it’s progress!