Cabin Weekend and Pre-Poland!

I need to go get some schoolwork done, but I figured I’d do a quick update since it’ll be a few weeks until my next one.

This past weekend was our cabin weekend with the girls! This will be the last cabin trip at my parent’s cabin since it’s been for sale for a few months. I doubt they’ll be hanging onto it still by next winter! We’ve owned the cabin for 11 years, so I have a lot of memories there! Tons of naps, books read, sitting on the porch… Lots of quality time, seeing as there is no TV and we try to stay off our phones while we’re there. It’ll be sad to see the cabin go for sure.


We got there late on Friday night since everybody had to work, and the cabin is about 2 hours north of downtown Atlanta (where all the girls were coming from). This was Laura’s first trip to the cabin, and Gina and Kassie came too, but they’ve been a bunch before. We hung out on Friday night before going to bed around 11pm.

Saturday morning, we all went in town for breakfast. I actually ran into my old college roommate and more recently, my old coworker, Shelby out there! It was so good to see her! The girls and I grabbed coffee at the local coffee shop and planned Kassie’s baby shower and talked about traveling. I swear, I got so lucky by finding a group of good friends that love to travel so much. And we’ve been friends forever, so it’s not like we found each other because of that common interest. We’ve just grown up that way! After coffee and planning, we headed out to walk around downtown and to check out a huge used book store.

We had to go back to the cabin to clean up since there was a 4pm showing, so we ran there to clean up and had planned on going to the park. The check in “house” for the cabin rentals (my parent’s cabin was a rental previously and is still in with a bunch of rentals, but the owners can choose if they want to rent or not, and my parents don’t rent theirs out) is also a winery. I had never been in there before since it never looks busy, but it was so nice out on Saturday and people were on the porch! So we decided to hit up the winery!


I never drink. But the wine was so good and I got so drunk. We talked about Trump (I’m the only semi-pro Trump person out of them, and I actually don’t like Trump, but I don’t really think “grabbing women by the pussy” disqualifies a candidate and I am glad to get away from lifelong politicians for a term) and race and other things that I probably should stay away from while drunk. It was a lot of fun though and it was even kind of nice to get unexpectedly drunk off two bottles of wine, haha. Too bad Kassie couldn’t drink with us!

We went out to get pizza after that and then headed back to the cabin, where we ate dinner, played games, and chilled.

Sunday morning, we got up and got ready fairly quickly. Jon had to fly back to Charleston (he stayed the weekend on a layover from Orlando, where he went last week for a regional meeting for work) at 3, so I was trying to get home to see him before he left. We stopped at Panera on the way back, and then I got home in time to take Jon to the airport.

I had really mild UTI symptoms all weekend long and my UTIs are normally awful. But with our upcoming trip, I decided to get get checked. I went to an urgent care and while I was there, I just became miserable in like, ten seconds flat. My back hurt so incredibly bad and I was so nauseous! Thankfully, I took an emesis bag from the urgent care because I threw up in my car on the way home. I took Tramadol once I got home and went and laid down. Thankfully, my mom is wonderful and took care of Jackson while I was miserable. WTF is wrong with me this last month?! I had hand, foot, and mouth and now a UTI?! I hope things improve by Poland!

I need to get going now! I’m trying to get my schoolwork mostly done since we leave for Poland on THURSDAY! I really want to keep Jackson home on Thursday morning, but Jon lands in Atlanta around 1 so I’m going to the airport early. Jon wants to pack in a bag that I have here, so we have some stuff to do once he lands before I go into the airport with him. I am going to miss my boy so much!

Look at that face! He has no lips, just like Jon. And he started toddling around! He took 9 steps the other night, but then he barely walked at all yesterday. He’s getting there though! I wish you could see his hair curls there, but he has curls right above both ears and right on the top of his head. It’s so cute. I get so excited to see his little face and to hang out with him now! 10 days is going to be too long without him!

After we get back from Poland, Jackson and I officially go out to Charleston! I’m super excited to have our family under one roof! It’ll be busy though, since I feel like our weekend are already filling up for February, March, and April and I kind of just want to time for us to be a family in our new city!

Alrighty, I have to go get some homework done! I only have two days to get everything done for our trip!

Weekend Updates

What a wonderful weekend! I have had this whole weekend off, and I still have next weekend and the following two weekends off work! I don’t know how I worked so many weekends in a row (probably because I never worked two back-to-back twelve hour shifts lately because I hate it) lately, but this is so freeing to be off for so many weekends!

Friday we had a “snow storm” in Atlanta. I was working during the day, but thankfully, the weather deterred people from really coming to the ER. We still were steady all day, but never crazy. And I had good assignments all day long.

When I got home from work (still clear weather!), Jon was here to greet me! He got home early and it was nice to be home to my husband! I don’t even remember if we did anything on Friday night. I think maybe we went to eat? No idea. Maybe we just hung out at home? Doesn’t matter.

Saturday morning was a snowy one, so we hung out and had pajama Saturday with Jackson. But then we decided to venture out, so my mom hung out at home with Jackson while Jon and I went to REI to try to get the last of our Poland gear. We stopped at Honeybaked Ham for lunch since I’ve been craving their ham since Thanksgiving and it was so good! Then we headed over to REI, where we bought a few things (another thick pair of socks and a Smartwool shirt for me- I LOVE Smartwool, but they are way too expensive) that’ll be nice to keep us warm.

After we put Jackson to bed, Jon and I decided to head to the outlet mall in Woodstock for Ghirardelli hot chocolate. It’s a drive to get out there, but it’s the best hot chocolate ever! Unfortunately, everything was closed because of the weather. We found a coffee shop on Yelp and went to downtown Woodstock, but that was closed too! The only thing open was a cigar bar, so Jon and I decided to head in there.

Aside from the horrible stench of cigars (I have been to cigar bars that are really well ventilated- this was not one of them), it was actually kind of fun. Jon hasn’t smoked cigars in awhile, but it was pretty laid back and I have a feeling most of the people in there were regulars. Besides, sometimes it’s nice to just do something unexpected, especially since life with babies is pretty predictable.

Sunday morning we were having brunch at Rachel’s with her and her husband and baby, Kassie and Billy, and Gina and Brian. Now that it’s officially announced, the pregnant one is Kassie! I think she’s 18 weeks now with a little girl! So much fun! I can’t wait until she has her! Brunch was a lot of fun! We had originally talked about going out for brunch, but in response to a question, I mentioned that Jackson is pretty difficult to take out to eat right now. We decided on a potluck brunch at Rachel’s since it would be easier, and it definitely was! Their daughter is 6 months old and Jackson had plenty of her toys to keep him occupied! It’s still hard to focus on the adult conversation with a little person distracting you, but it was so much easier being there than a restaurant. At the end of our brunch, Kassie mentioned that she could see why we opted for an in-home brunch instead, after she saw how rambunctious Jackson is these days!


Rachel, me, Gina, Kassie.

Once we got home from brunch, I went to meet up with Laura. We ran to Target for a new steamer pot (I may have burnt that pot at my parent’s house because I forgot it was on the stove… oops), then had some dinner at Atlanta Bread Company, followed by hot chocolate at Starbuck’s.

Jon decided to stay in Atlanta last night since he doesn’t have any cases in Charleston, so we got to hang out all night too! We have been getting along wonderfully lately and I really have enjoyed our time together, so I was really happy that he was home Jon and I watched The Fundamentals of Caring on Netflix, which was a cute movie. I was in the movie for something funny and light and it was good for that! I’d recommend it.


Jon and Jackson before daycare today.

I took Jackson to daycare this morning and had breakfast at home with Jon. He just left and now I need to run to Whole Foods and then start on schoolwork. I’m getting my hair colored this afternoon, even though I always second guess if I really want it dyed again. Part of me just wants to let my hair grow out completely to my natural color, but I just never do. Today is the first day of our semester, so I’ll be working super hard to get ahead in the short time we have before we leave for Poland!

Speaking of Poland, everything is booked! I’m super excited to get there! It’s going to be a blast! Super cold, but definitely fun! I’m going to miss my little squishy boy so much though, but it will be much needed to spend some quality time with Jon! Especially since he will be in Savannah so much over the next few months. I can’t believe we leave NEXT THURSDAY! And I’m already ready to start planning my next trip!

Alrighty, time to head out to be a productive adult!

Charleston Tomorrow and NYE

I should be going to bed in a few minutes since I’m going to Charleston tomorrow, but I’m not that tired somehow! I should also be booking out hotels for Poland because we leave in 16 days, but I’m also not doing that. I actually was walking out the door this morning to go to a coffee shop and book all of our AirBnBs and then I got called into work at the very last minute, so my plans went out the door.

Jon came in town this weekend which was nice! Unfortunately, I had to head into work on Saturday and Sunday from 9-3. We did go grab a bite to eat on Friday night but I was feeling kind of gross, so we just came back to the house and watched Captive on Netflix.

On Saturday, I went to meet up with Gina after work down by our old condo (I still miss living down there!) for some coffee. I really feel like I haven’t spent nearly enough time with friends lately, although I think that’s just what happens as we get older and our lives change. Jon and I talked about going out for NYE to do something fun, but we didn’t. Instead, we went to grab some pizza and watched some more Captive in bed.

I got home from work Sunday and Jon had gone out with Andrew without telling me, so I was a little surprised to find my parents watching Jackson (they offered, but hello, let your wife know!). I had been wanting to go to the Botanical Gardens that night, but Jon didn’t get home until right before Jackson went to bed, and then I laid down on the couch and was too lazy to get up and get dressed to go. So, another night watching Captive at home!

Monday we headed down to the North Face store. I bought some new snow boots and a new winter jacket. I’m really not sure what happened in the last five years, but I’m pretty sure the North Face has almost tripled in price. I’m letting it slide since the last time I bought a winter jacket and boots was before I went to China (I think that was in 2011) and I love their jackets, but really? I’m kicking myself too, because last year I found an awesome winter jacket for $70 on clearance and told myself I didn’t need to buy it since I wanted to save money! I should have just invested back then. Other than needing a few base layers now, I’m pretty much set for Poland! I want to get maybe 1 or 2 more wool shirts. I haven’t been in cold weather in awhile, so I have a feeling Poland winters are going to be a little shocking for this Southern girl.

Gina came over Monday afternoon to hang out with Jackson. I feel kind of bad because hanging out with Jackson isn’t really anything exciting. Not only that, he was super clingy. I think he gets clingy when he wakes up from naps to strangers, but we did give him a bath and he was super happy then. But I’m just not sure it’s what people expect when they come to hang out, and we’re really just feeding him dinner and doing baths. That Mom Life isn’t really glamorous and fun, but it was still nice to have some company!

I already mentioned that I was called in today. When I buckled J into his carseat, I noticed he sprouted a new tooth! I have been expecting it since he was teething a few weeks ago really bad so I knew it had to be coming! He has his 7th tooth! If it’s anything like his last teeth, then the one on the other side should be coming in soon too.

I hung out with my boy tonight and made some Paleo pumpkin muffins for him. I just finished pumping and catching up on some trash TV, and now I need to pack real quick. I’m heading to Charleston tomorrow after I drop J off at daycare so I can pack for Poland. I don’t think I need much, but it’s easier to just go there myself rather than have Jon dig out all of my stuff, especially since I don’t even know where I put everything. I wish I could stay longer, but since my parents will be watching Jackson for 10 whole days soon, I don’t really want to leave him here longer than I need.

Jon and I are planning on having a date night in Charleston though since we’ll be childless! I should get there around two tomorrow and Jon has a later case, so I think I’m going to head downtown to do some solo exploring when I get there. And then we’ll go back downtown at night. Tomorrow is a high of 67 there, so I’ll just have to swing by and pick up my shorts at the house, haha. I’m sure I’ll sleep in a little on Thursday morning, but then I’m heading back to pick Jackson up in the afternoon from daycare. I’m going to miss my little bubby! He is just so much fun right now and I actually like spending time with him these days, so I definitely miss him! But it’ll be nice to have a whole night for just the two old married people! We’ll probably be in bed by 9, haha.

I work on Friday from 9-7, and then Jon comes back this weekend. He has a regional meeting on Monday in Atlanta, so he gets to stay here all day on Sunday too! I’m even off work this weekend! So I’m pretty excited for an entire weekend as a family without having to work at all! I’m so anxious to get back to Charleston and just start our life for a little while. I know it’ll be temporary since we’ll be right back in this situation in September, but I’m trying not to think about it! It’s only been three weeks of being here without Jon and it already feels like way too long, so I can’t imagine eight months of this! Hopefully by September, it’ll be easier to go back and forth with Jackson!

Now I’m rambling. Better go pack for tomorrow! I honestly wouldn’t even bother taking anything, but since we are going to do a date night, I figure I should at least get some stuff together. Or maybe I’ll just shower in the morning and just throw my make up in a bag. I have clothes to wear there. Who knows.

Oh, last bit of good news- MY OLD BRAS FIT AGAIN! Honestly, that alone gives me more motivation to get back in shape and dye my godforsaken hair and to just put a little more effort into my appearance. I just felt so frumpy with such big boobs, and none of my clothes fit and I just didn’t care to make an effort. Nursing bras don’t have any lift to them since your boobs can literally triple in size in the same bra, so my boobs were just taking up my whole front and falling towards my arms and just not cute. The fact that I have my little boobs back and they’re lifted and where they should be just makes me feel much more back to normal and not so gross. And I can fit into my clothes again which is so nice, so I can stop wearing only v-necks all the time! I put jeans on to go out to eat on Saturday and my mom even commented on the fact that I was in jeans. It was the first time I’ve worn anything other than leggings in over 3 weeks since I’ve been here.

Alright, good night guys!


Friday Thoughts

Hey guys! It’s FRIDAY! Not insanely exciting since I’m planning on going back to work tomorrow and Sunday, but I only have to work 9-3 both days. I just wish I could have a little more time to hang out with Jon and Jackson, but such is life! Jon will be to Atlanta around 2pm today, so at least we have this evening to do something together. And my parents are in town this weekend too, so I think tomorrow night, Jon and I are going to go out and do something. Not anything for NYE because we’re old and tired and I work on Sunday morning, but just to get out together and have a date night.

It has been a pretty boring week around here! I still have a lot of red spots from HFM, although only one actual blister. I think the drainage has stopped from the ones on my face, but I’m worried that all the ones on my face are going to scar. Which isn’t really the end of the world, but I’d have to start using some sort of BB cream regularly or something if that happens until the scars lighten up. And I’m lazy.

Jon went to a new gym in Charleston last night (new for us, not new in Charleston). He said he really liked it and that they had kettle bells and an area for olympic lifts (with the bumper plates) and that even at 5pm, it wasn’t very busy. It seems like it’d be a good gym, but I have no idea how much it would cost to do classes there (the regular gym is $30 a month, which is good). They have childcare too, so I’m sure that’s additional. I tried to call and get more pricing information but they just kept telling me to come in. So, I guess I’ll see when I get there. It sounds sort of similar to the gym I went to in Massachusetts though and I LOVED that gym! I was thinking of trying to get a punch card for CrossFit and then just join a regular gym so we can save money. Although, CrossFit gyms aren’t as big there (just in that there are not nearly as many as in Atlanta- there are TONS here- I have no idea how common it is otherwise) and the few I looked at didn’t list punch cards on there, so who knows.

I went to have lunch with Laura yesterday. She wasn’t scared of my HFM, so I went and picked her up from work and we had Chipotle together. I feel like I haven’t seen anybody since being back in Atlanta.

It’s super nice out today! Not sure if it’s cold or not, but it’s sunny and clear. Jackson is napping now, so I need to shower in a minute and then my dad and I are going to run to Costco to grab some stuff. I need to swing by Target to order contacts and then drop a book off at UPS to get shipped back to Amazon. I should check to see when my classes start. Hopefully this weekend Jon can confirm our schedule for Poland so we can start booking rooms. I need to go through all of my photos from Yosemite and delete the duplicates so I can put them on my external hard drives and delete them from my camera to free up space for Poland. And I need to work on my Shutterfly book for Jon before school starts again too, since I get so caught up in schoolwork during the semester that I never work on that type of stuff. We also need to go shopping for warm clothes this weekend for Poland. Still in search of warm, comfortable snow boots to take to Poland!

I really want to go back and start making Shutterfly books of all of my vacations, but that would take so long. I just hate that I have thousands and thousands of photos of trips to such awesome places and no way to easily go back and look at them. I used to scrapbook, but those take up a lot of space. I love that with the Shutterfly books, they’re so compact and I could have an entire bookshelf of them. I really wish I had done them all along, but too late.

I really hope I can get ahead on schoolwork for January so I’m not working on it all in Poland. But I have the same shit professor from last semester who literally would take days to respond to emails about assignment. I’m pretty frustrated about it. And we have super full days in Poland too, since we want to go to so many cities in such a short amount of time, so I won’t have a lot of time to really sit down and work on stuff. I’m really hoping our Wifi works well there, since I doubt there will be a lot of McDonald’s in the Old Towns where we’re staying (McDonald’s always has Wifi- I can’t tell you how many times we’ve gone to McDonald’s in other countries just to get on Wifi).

I have no idea why I decided to write down all of my random thoughts again. I need to start adding more pictures one of these days, but I’ve been lazy.

Poland, HFM, Baby J, & Post-Baby Bodies

Hey-o. Wednesday is looking much better than yesterday! I’m still bored out of my mind sitting at home, but oh well. Poland is officially booked! I can’t believe we leave in three weeks! We have a LOT of planning to do, and school starts in a few days so I need to get it together and get planning. I’m really excited to pick out our AirBnBs, because they have such cute ones right in the middle of the old towns for dirt cheap. Jon and I need to go shopping for some warm clothes! Does anybody who lives in the snow have any recommendations for good snow boots? I have a pair of North Face boots that I love, but I’m not sure how waterproof they are. I could probably spray them and waterproof them. I also want to get a longer winter jacket. I think I bought mine before I went to China in 2011 and while it’s still in great condition, it’s just too short for me.

I was also looking at medical relief trips last night. I really think I might try to do one this year. They have one to South Africa and one to Thailand this year that I would LOVE to do! They are 10 days long and I would try to extend past for maybe another 4-5 days. I have always wanted to do a trip like that, but honestly never knew where to look for one that isn’t religious. I found a company last night and am going to try to get either Jessica (my old travel nurse friend) or a nurse that I work with to go with me. I really hope it works out, since I know we’re planning on trying to get pregnant again later this year and I don’t think I’d be able to do this with two kids.

After all this travel planning, I can’t imagine having another baby. I feel like it’s manageable to travel with one, but it’s going to get much harder with two. Jon can get Jackson ready for daycare before work, but throwing another one into the mix would make it awfully hard. And with Poland and Iceland this year for sure (and I want to do another vacation at least), it just makes me want to keep traveling. Jon and I have already talked about taking Jackson with us on vacations starting next year (or later this summer if we go in the US), but I’m kind of thinking maybe we just need to wait another year before trying for our next baby.

Speaking of Jackson, he’s a fun little dude these days. I’m thinking he’s close to toddling around! He took his first three steps (not in a row) and he’s killing it running around the house with his little push walker. But he’ll run into something and drop his head down and just let out a cry because he’s so disappointed that he’s not moving anymore. It’s pretty adorable. He eats like a little champ. My Hispanic daycare lady with the super thick accent always tells me “He eat so good!” He LOVES chicken chili, carrots, avocado, and bananas. He’s been eating three meals a day and two snacks, plus four bottles still. Pilar (the daycare lady) the other day was like, “Miss Liz, why he scream so much?” Haha. He is constantly squealing but I’m pretty sure it’s because he’s excited about life. He claps now and he is so happy about it! He loves being on Grandma’s bathroom counter and looking in the mirror. His favorite toys include the refrigerator and the dishwasher. And Rascal. He spends more time chasing Rascal around the house than doing anything else. Jackson will now lay his head down if you say, “Nigh nigh” in a soft voice. It has to be the cutest thing ever. Once 6pm hits, he knows bedtime is close. We usually play on the floor with him then and we’ll say “Nigh nigh” a bunch and he just keeps laying down on the floor. He is over his hatred of getting his diaper changed and getting dressed. He still loves bath time. He has been super sweet lately and has been really good. He keeps crawling over to me and holding onto my legs and wants to be hugged (which is sad since I can’t do that right now!). He cries occasionally if I walk away, but settles once I’m out of site for a second. Except at daycare- then he never cries. He gets to daycare and wants to go play with his train and doesn’t even want me to pick him up to say goodbye! He gets so excited to see Daddy on the phone now and when he comes home on the weekend! Jackson was crying last weekend when Jon came home and cheered right up, and then Jon closed the door to go pee and Jackson lost it! It was pretty adorable! He definitely knows his Mom, Dad, Grandma, and Grandpa. I really enjoy this time with him. He really is a ton of fun and he’s been in such a good mood lately. He always sleeps great, he eats great, he isn’t very clingy anymore, and he’s just a happy boy.

In other random news, my foot is MUCH better now. I still wear the boot to work and sometimes if I’m going out of the house, but it hasn’t hurt in probably a week at all. I won’t go back to working out probably until February because I want to make sure it’s good and healed before pushing it, but I’m so glad it’s finally better. Also, I really am officially almost weaned off the pump (I think all the Benadryl and Dayquil helped dry up my milk). I’m pumping once a day or every other day and yesterday I only got about 4.5oz of milk. My boobs are back to being way small! And although they are not anywhere near what they were pre-baby, they aren’t too pancake-like (which I hope doesn’t change once my milk stops completely). I’m hoping after Poland, I can actually start gaining weight back and put some muscle on. My legs have just gotten so thin and my belly isn’t what it used to be (understandable). And my butt is so flat. I don’t think my body is ever going to be what it used to be, which is fine. But it’d be nice to start fitting into my old clothes better. My shirts should all fit now (they’re all in Charleston), but my pants are huge on me because of my weight loss and lack of muscle. I live in leggings every day, especially since I have the boot and stuffing jeans in them isn’t comfortable. I just feel like a slob though. I wear my hair back all the time since Jackson pulls it. I feel like I never really make an effort to look like a decent human being. And it’s hard to want to when I feel like nothing fits me, so I just wear leggings so what’s the point of fixing my hair?

Alright, well I’m about to head to the grocery store with my mask on so I don’t show the world my weeping facial blisters. I need to feed my child tonight so I guess I can’t be stuck in the house forever.

Hand, Foot, and Mouth :(

Merry Late Christmas! I’m actually super bummed this Christmas! On Friday afternoon, I started feeling pretty under the weather. My throat really hurt and I just felt terrible. Jackson was fussy and I had to take him out to get Tylenol since he was miserable. My parents had a bunch of stuff to do, so I had no help around the house, and I had so much to do too before working all weekend. And Jon was in Florida, enjoying his time off work, with no baby again.

I know Jon misses Jackson and that it makes sense for him to go see his family for the holidays, but at the same time, come home to see your son! And I had been totally fine with him going to Florida up until Friday, when I felt terrible and had to care for Jackson alone. So, I know this is just me being overly emotional, but still. I don’t ever get breaks from Jackson to just relax and enjoy an entire weekend at home! I get breaks if I go places occasionally, but I haven’t had a night in my house, alone, in forever. Much less a whole weekend! I don’t just get to decide to go to Florida to see my family without asking about the baby. And I think I got extra irritated at one point because Jon had invited friends for New Years to Charleston, and I told him I had to work so he needed to come here to take care of Jackson. He made some comment about having to come to Atlanta to babysit. Um, it’s your son. You aren’t babysitting. I am taking care of him for over a month while Jon works in Charleston (and while I work in Atlanta), so please spare me the sob story about how you have to come to Atlanta to take care of him for a weekend while I work. It’s not like I get to go out and galavant around.

Anyway, so I was just grumpy Friday. I went to be super early and then woke up feeling AWFUL on Saturday. I still went to work because calling out over the holidays is pretty frowned upon and I had just called out on Tuesday thinking I was coming down with the flu. So I went to work. Felt miserable all day Saturday. Noticed petechiae (pinpoint red spots) on the roof of my mouth that night so I assumed I had strep. Went to bed super early Saturday night. Jon was here that night too, but we barely even talked because we were both so tired that we were in bed by 9:10 (I get home from work at 8 and then ate some dinner).

Sunday I felt better, but decided to wear a mask at work since I thought I had come down with strep. I noticed this weird small rash on my hand and it kept itching, but I didn’t think much of it. Then t took it my mask off after a few hours at work when I went to the bathroom and noticed I had a rash on my mouth. So I realized I had hand, foot, and mouth. UGH! I told my supervisor and she switched me out of the children’s ER and to the adult side, but really, I should have been sent home. But we were so short staffed. And Christmas was so busy this year. It was insane.

I was in bed at 9:30 on Sunday night, but Jon wouldn’t even touch me (not even to massage my neck) because of the HFM. And then despite being exhausted, I was so itchy that I could not sleep! I slept two hours all night. The itching yesterday was unbearable and my rash got 10x worse. Finally I soaked my hands in cool water and baking soda and it seemed to help a little bit. Jon left in the late afternoon and my parents took care of Jackson since I don’t want to touch him!

Last night I took some Tramadol for pain and an Ambien to help me sleep. I soaked my hands before bed and magically slept almost 12 hours. I went to bed at 7:30, haha.

Today my hands are just super painful and mildly itchy. But I am SO bummed because every year we do a huge high school get together and Christmas and it’s tonight! So I have to miss that! Tomorrow we were going to Gina’s for a baby gender reveal (one of the girls is pregnant- but it’s not public who it is yet). Friday I was supposed to get together with Juliette, Danny, and Erin from college (Juliette is also who I lived with when I did travel nursing in Oregon). So I am SO bummed that THIS is the week that I got sick! I never have plans and now that I could meet up with all these people I never get to see, NOW I get sick?! Uuughh! And I can’t really hide this one either since I have a weeping rash all over the lower half of my face.

And all month I thought Jon was off this Friday. Yesterday he told me he’s not off on Friday. So I was so upset because I thought I’d have all day Friday with him at home (daycare is closed) and he wasn’t being very understanding and was like, “Can we just focus on the positive?” and wanted no part of me voicing my frustration. I already take care of Jackson all the time! And now all my plans with friends were ruined because of HFM! Jon and I couldn’t do anything together yesterday like I was hoping since I have HFM! It’s ANOTHER day I thought I’d get some help that Jackson is all mine again! Sorry that while you get to wake up without worrying about getting a baby ready, and you can go to work like a normal human being, I’m still at home WITH A BABY! AND my baby just wants to be held by me and keeps reaching for me and I can’t even pick him up! I don’t want him near my face since those blisters are weeping!

I know this is all part of having a baby! But I’m just extra irritated this week since I’ve just really been looking forward to seeing everybody at our get together and finding out if the new baby in the group is a boy or a girl! And I really wanted to hang out with Jon but won’t be able to (HFM lasts 7-10 days). And it’s irritating that Jon doesn’t really get it. He threw a fit over watching Jackson for 10 days, yet doesn’t understand why I’m so moody when I’m taking care of him for over a month on my own. I want Jon to take Jackson to Atlanta one weekend and leave me home alone in Charleston for a weekend. So I can be in my own house, ALONE, and just sit and do whatever I want! I just don’t think he gets what it’s like to plan every second of every single day around somebody else. And Jackson is even in daycare! So here I have had a day or two off during the week to run errands! But I still am working around his schedule! Or if a friend wants to hang out, I’m planning his naps around that! Or worrying about getting him to bed before I leave the house!

Anyway, I need to go book our plane tickets to Poland. I need to call Delta since they don’t have what I need available online. And I need to sign up for my classes for the spring but my password wouldn’t work earlier and then I locked myself out of my account. Besides, this whole post was basically to complain. But there wasn’t much else to update on since all I’ve been doing is working anyway. And weaning off the pump (WOOHOO!) and now my boobs are so small again, haha. And I didn’t bring any bras that fit me now back to Atlanta. Oops.


Life Updates

Happy Monday! I had planned on going to see Lizzie and her baby today, but Jackson threw a pretty huge tantrum when I tried to get him dressed to take him to daycare. Since he’s had a runny nose and has been fussy in the evenings, I didn’t want to expose him to a non-daycare baby, so I had planned on dropping him off at daycare today. But I guess he had other plans! Instead, I gave him a bottle before his nap in hopes of him sleeping extra long this morning and put him down for a nap at home. I guess I’ll postpone my plans again! I’m kind of itching for him to get to daycare since I kept him home on Friday to let him get some extra sleep since he has a cold, but then my productivity goes out the window.

Actually, I did take him to Carter’s to return an outfit on Friday. And then I bought two outfits since they were on mega sale, but it wasn’t until I was halfway home that I realized that they way overcharged me. So now I need to go back anyway and get my money back! Babies are so distracting. I would have caught that had he not been with me, but at the time, I just wanted to get out of the store since he was being kind of difficult (/they have no shopping carts and he was getting really heavy).

Jon got home right before Jackson went to bed on Friday night. Since my parents were home, Jon and I went out to grab some dinner. We wanted to try a Southern place nearby, but it was pretty fancy and they took reservations, so we turned around and walked out of there pretty fast! Instead, we found this Jerusalem cafe on Yelp and went there. It was much more casual and the shawarma was actually really good. It was a pretty legit place!

Saturday morning we decided to go hunt down Santa! We went to Bass Pro Shops and unfortunately, our time slot for Santa wasn’t until 2pm (it was 10:30). After a quick visit to the merry-go-round, we decided to drive around and let Jackson nap in the car. Our morning was spent driving around and stopping so one person could go inside to eat breakfast while the other sat in the car with Jackson. We finally went back to Bass Pro and walked around and stood in line for our photos. I was majorly bummed because they set Jackson on Santa’s lap for maybe 10 seconds max and never even try to get the kids to smile! I had my real camera with me, but the 3 photos I got (literally in a row- that’s how long he was on his lap) were not great. Santa’s eyes are closed in the good one of Jackson, and then Santa isn’t looking in the other, and the other one is washed out. The quality of their photos really sucked.

We spent Saturday evening just hanging out at home. I was going to go to Kassie’s Christmas party, but she was sick so she had to cancel it. It ended up being fine, since I was super tired on Saturday night and just relaxed!

I worked all day yesterday. There is nothing exciting about that. Twelve hour shifts seem ungodly long now. I never work more than 10 so the day felt like it was never going to end. And I have to work 12s on Christmas Eve and Christmas so I’m dreading that for two days in a row. HOW did I ever work so much overtime?!

Anyway, it’s now 8pm and I just sat down and saw this post still up (Jackson woke up while I was typing), so I’ll just go ahead and post this, haha.